The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 3
Good day, no sad thoughts. I hope those feelings are gone, I hate being like that, and it's ot under my control, so I just have to wait until my brain thinks it's time to end sadness...
Tomorrow I'll start a dopamine detox, cuz after the relapse I've already binge watched youtube and it's no good for my brain, I need to get back on track

 

Alright I feel exhausted but thankfully I don't have any desire to relapse. I'm making good on my plan to check in daily and also practice piano, overall I feel like garbo, but very motivated! Day 1

 

Day 351

 

Back to day 1 again

 

Day 3. No giving up now bois. Hang in there.

 

Having sex without her wanting doesn’t make things worse, because she still enjoys it and I am much happier after that . It only covers the problem.

Day 49 finished!
After I decided not to initiate sex, so far I feel bad that I am taking away such a good thing from myself, I feel a little bit like a victim and I am conscious about that and it makes me feel worse . I need to man up, that’s probably why she doesn’t want to have sex in the first place. For now I will try on my own, but the new workplace should give me an insurance that will alow me to go to a psychhoterapist/sexologist.

 

Day 9

I don’t have much time to write if I want to do everything I need to do before bed. I’ll just say that it turns out I have nearly three weeks off starting tomorrow, not two. I think this will be a good time to kick it up a notch! Going to get up early tomorrow.

 

To man up, start lifting, cut sugar of your diet, add into your diet food that helps raising testosterone levels

 

Day 5 - Orc,
The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

Last night was a good night. No urges at all and instead bonded with my gf and fell asleep together

 

Day 1. Sailing towards day 2.

 

Day 5

 

Day 344 no PMO. Good day yesterday. No urges. Got a decent amount of work done and come home early to spend the afternoon/evening with my family. Three short weeks until I hit the year mark!

 

Day 4
I woke up today feeling motivated and hopeful, even though a bit tired for not having enough sleep.
This will be a day full of studying, so I won't have too much time of doing nothing, which gives space for triggering situations.

 

Check in day 15. I am on the way to Bree now. The last couple of days I have been very tired. Today during a course for my work I was really distracted. Because she was doing a meditation and I just heard beach and was reminded of my time with my fiancee. I was distracted and imagined myself staff I should not have. It felt really at the wrong place for such imaginations.

Can someone give me a tipp how to sort your thoughts so that you can stay focused during a course?

Greetings
J

 

7 days

 

Day 180!

A little sad about some stuff, I'm trying to be joyful again.

 

Check in day 127

 

Check in! Finishing day 10, moving on to day 11 in a bit. Yesterday was amazing. No anxiety/panic. Have a good feeling about today.

 

Day 87, trod on!

 

Yeah it's a good one, I almost finish the 5 season, but be careful, it have a lot of nudity scenes, I usually skip them or just focus my eyes to the wall or something.