The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 8! An Uruk-Hai again.
Feeling good and always controling my thoughts and what I see. Today is a good day for everybody, so we have to keep going to the best version of ourselfs.

Keep strong my brothers!

 

I'm not afraid of nude scenes any more. I can skip them if necessary. I guess loneliness and feeling rejected are my triggers. Unless I don't feel that way, the urges are under control.

 

60 days – After leaving Moria, you enter the Kingdom of the Silvan Elves, Lothlórien.

Day 60 guys! I'm proud and happy to achieve this mark! 2 months in the bank.

As always:

Strenght & Honor!

 

End of day 50.

from now on I will try to post on evenings, so I could read the bible at least a little bit in the morning. I don’t feel wery good, I perform badly in work, my wife doesn’t talk to me, but it’s only a ripple of chalanges, that will pass and something else will come. Urge for sex is strong, but not to PM.

 

Thanks dude! You'll reach it first, see if it's any good there, then i'll come after you, ok?

 

Checking in day 80. Feel good, head is working and can study for hours a day with a very good attention and by the way my listening became nearly perfect I can hear and understand everybody no matter how fast or slow they speak! Cranked up 16 pull ups quite easily, could do some 20 if tried harder just didn't want to force myself.

 

Day 30. Feeling more difficult today, low mood. Hope everyone else is doing ok!

 

Hi there! I'm going to do a retreat with no online activities whatsoever. Although this is hard, it will make it possible for me to get rid of constant relapses and become a hobbit in one go.

The next time you'll see me I'll be a hobbit in this challenge. Anyone wanna join me? See below

 

12 No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)

I stumbled on a great insight about nofap.

 

I decide to destroy the porn ring! I´m a Hobbit now. I must take the ring to the place where it was made, Mount Doom. I left Hobbiton, heading for Bree.



I feel great! With energy and with less PMO thoughts. Before when I was about to relapse but I can resist, the urge did accumulate until the point that I was in a 100% horny mode. But after the cold shower it was a reset, I feel better and more confident than the first day. I have a new weapon like @Kairose said, one victory.

I am ready for the journey!

 

Checking in for day 2! Less tired and just as motivated today!

 

Day 32

Today flew by - busy with meetings and admin, but was fortunate enough to have a few spare moments to laugh around with my colleagues. One of them is having a difficult time with the work environment and others are not doing so well, so I had to put on a positive face to try and lift the mood. Thankfully all seemed to settle by the end of the day!

Had a great evening catching up with two friends, had some brief chats with strangers at the pub and realised my confidence has shot up - trying to not let it get to my head and focus on discipline and keeping myself accountable.

 

Night checking in
It was a good day of studying. Almost 9 hours. It got me really tired, though.
Hope tomorrow I'll repeat that
No urges to report

 

Well done brother!

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

Day 377 free of MO and Day 449 free of porn.

I had a decent day overall, but then things got bad/mixed. Just as I write this, I ended a 10 year toxic friendship. I've been wanting to end it over the last 2 years, but I was avoiding the situation. The person in question made things much more easy by reacting a certain way over text messages, when I tried to have a "one last" conversation over the phone with her. Attempting to end things like an adult. She projected anger, insecurity and sadness, playing the victim without heading what I wrote. It sucks, I do feel mixed emotions, as she was a person I considered a very good friend to me in the past. But, sadly we move forward.

The positive of this situation is that I faced something I wanted to do end for a long time now, I just was no longer invested in this friendship. It was too toxic and negative. I would not feel good speaking to her anymore, always stressed after. It does hurt at the moment, but I know it will pass.

In the past, instead of confronting the situation, I would of resorted to PMO to numb myself out.

Seems I've grown.

Stay strong.

 

Day 352

 

Love to see so many of you having improvements in your life. And I hope those of you who are struggling become stronger with the fight.

I feel the fellowship strong tonight. Like there is some kind of bond between all of us. We really are walking together in this. We care for each other. And each one of us wants the others to be free.

Yet where sin was powerful, God’s grace was even more powerful.

 

Day 2 complete.

Had a double fall on Sunday. I thought I had been doing really well, which made it sting even worse, but I've picked myself back up. I've been mixing in more warm showers with my cold ones since the temperature has been so low lately, and I wonder if that translated to a reduction in discipline for NoFap.

St. John Bosco, pray for us.

 

I will put this in the Harry Potter challenge as well:

I'm sorry to report another day 0. I feel so ashamed each time I write this on here on the challenges especially. Because I think all of you are so awesome, and I honestly think the challenges are so fun. It just makes me feel worthless when I fail and make empty promises.

I can't shake that feeling, but I'm not going to let it stop me.

Thanks for letting me be a part of the challenge. Let's go. Day 0.

 

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