I will put this in the Harry Potter challenge as well: I'm sorry to report another day 0. I feel so ashamed each time I write this on here on the challenges especially. Because I think all of you are so awesome, and I honestly think the challenges are so fun. It just makes me feel worthless when I fail and make empty promises. I can't shake that feeling, but I'm not going to let it stop me. Thanks for letting me be a part of the challenge. Let's go. Day 0.
Day 10 This Dragon wishes to congratulate Tigers everywhere for it is the Chinese new year and what better way to celebrate than with ten days clean of porn and masturbation. Double digits! I did a pretty good job of having my act together today. Got all my bills paid, got up early, walked a lot, worked out and started a new audio book: “The Way of Men.” Really getting a lot of use out of audible so far. I did have an interesting chat with a man in town today. I think his name was “Sardah” or something to that effect. He seemed possibly somewhat mentally ill, but smart none the less. He was walking around with a copy of “Hagakure” which I thought was interesting considering I recently read it. He seemed pretty excited about the Chinese new year and seemed glad that I was an earth dragon. I guess he had a “lover” in Japan, had practiced many martial arts, traveled the world and disliked that the mayor of this city keeps cutting down cherry blossom trees. I agree and am glad this mayor is not running again.
Day 11 yesterday , officially past my last streak. Starting day 12. Goal 1000 days. Doing some soul searching to find the roots of this addiction and will share it tomorrow.
Day 345 no PMO. Got outside yesterday and went for a six mile walk. Good day. No urges. I recently ordered a new Apple Watch and I’m once I get it connected to my Verizon account I’m thinking of trying to ditch the phone for a week or so to see how it goes. It seems for the most part that people are doing well in this challenge! Keep up the good work everyone!
2 days done! I never made it far in this challenge. I was a hobbit for a short time last year though. I think it's a good idea to go into a retreat and stop all internet activities, also on my phone. I think my brain needs that. Afterwards I'll hopefully learn to use the internet more moderately as I'm willing to do for a long time already. But maybe I'll go into retreats on a regular basis. It's good to have this second incentive to become "a hobbit". Before I've lost motivation to follow this path. But even if it's just a gamified approach, everything that eventually helps me out of this mf addiction is good for me! My phone is already offline right now. I hope to have a good day with minimal internet and without porn. Tomorrow I have an online appointment and that's it, afterwards I'm going dark. 15 days completely offline. Oh and I should abstain from MO too. That's a challenge in the challenge. But maybe I make it! It's possible. I'm motivated to exchange masturbation for self-love and intimacy with a partner in the long run. Maybe I come along a little bit attention-seeking. It's true, I had left this challenge. But I'm super motivated again right now. It helps me a great deal to write this out. Even if nobody joins me for my first retreat, I'll do it and I'll be back to report in the forum. Cya!
I clicked the link and discovered that i'm a metal snake... I was reading the description and most of it match my personality, crazy stuff huh?!
Day 181! I started mindfulness meditation yesterday, it's hard for me to concentrate in it, but I want to keep gaining good habits. I'm not sure why I feel with low energy, and that I don't care for interacting with others... It's like I'm in full contemplation mode, with low acting. Maybe I have COVID and I'm tired because of it.
Day 9! A lot of things to do but I will be with my family today, because they need help with some stuffs that they have to resolve. So I will be distracted. keep strongh my brothers!
@nerdy_owl I couldn't stop watching the Vikings. If you like reading there's a good novel series by John Flanagan the Brotherband, it's a also about vikings and keeps in suspsense.
Day 0. Last night I fought with an urge for quite some time. Anyway, today was quite productive and the next day is gonna be day 1 for sure.