The Lord of the Rings Challenge

50 days Moria, the greatest Dwarven Kingdom, is before you. With a beard and a axe, you´re a Dwarf now.
End of day 51 - firs official day as a dwarf

 

Day 3.

No urges, doing well. Little orc back in town.

 

Day 31. Not much to report today.

 

Thank you for this motivating statement! Yes, and I think I will in general become less compulsive, impulsive and relexed when I stop overusing media and devices. I'll let my brain heal.
Also, with so much more time and focus on the real world and the small things, nature and other people, I will learn to get much better along in real life in general.

The only difficulty is that the brain will miss and crave all the behaviors that get my reward system going. But by fasting it's possible to reset it.

 

It's the disease of the dragons called hoarding that is lethal to us for treasure ties us up and turns us into its guards.

 

Well done bro ! Keep pushing forward there is no interest in going back where we know everything. Keep discovering new vistas and seeing the changes you expect.

 

Checking in. All good.

Downloaded tinder, after 3 min i uninstalled it... Damn what a terrible app to use, do not recommend it.

 

Checking in day 81. Feel out of sinc( probably because of the wet dream at the night-time) and tend to avoid anything responsible today, just meditation, run in the morning and watched 4 episodes of 'swamp thing'...and done some garage cleaning which proves to be a challenge, because of fear that you might need the s**t later or how much you paid for it...this is where you feel dragon sickness inside, telling- 'I won't part with any little thing of my treasure.'

 

A little thing I was thinkin' about recently... Are we aware of the energy around us - what do we do to become more aware of this energy and our own energy? Because we all have a certain impact on our environment and the people around us. And we all can increase that impact and make it more and more positive. For me the most important reason to change and give up on PMO is the reason to come and stay in my pure energy again. I know that porn is sth that drains my energy and steals my time - and still I wasnt able to give up on it yet. Maybe because Im not aware enough of my energy?

 

swamp thing is a cool series bro - I watched it before - have fun!

 

This is so true that I feel sad when someone breaks his streak, especially after a long one. I feel like I want to help him to stand up again and continue the journey. I feel like we are all a trophy against the PMO enemy.

Together we are stronger.

 

Day 16 - I am leaving hobbiton.

Today I had some mid-level urges, but for the first time, I am beginning to feel that I don't want to relapse. Looks like my unconscious is receiving the message. Also no erotic dreams.

And the journey continues...

 

Day 3. Think I've finally gotten the ball rolling again! Haven't skipped out on a single goal yet, and I don't plan to! Onto day 4

 

Nice! the history is really good, sometimes its like, I have to see the next chapter now! I almost finish it, still like 20 chapters yet. Thanks man for the suggestion. I like to read. Now I'm reading a history book, but I read a lot of science and fiction books, like harry potter and the hunger games. I tryed to start reading the game of thrones but the book didn't hook me.

 

Day 33

Today was slightly trickier than usual, while I was getting ready this morning I saw my neighbour in a state of undress and that small trigger played havoc throughout the day. Old memories of interactions with girls and PMO kept running through my mind, and I found myself very tired by late afternoon with the effort of distracting myself from these urges.

Things calmed down by the end of the day and now I’m off to bed, I’m very surprised and grateful that I managed to abstain! 10 more days until I’ve had my longest streak in 11 years - onwards to Moria!

 

Amen brother, a true fellowship.

 

Man if you see a risk... Cold shower. The situation that you described is enough for me to scream in urges

 

Day 88, trod on!

 

Indeed... I have much to discard. I have way too much stuff for my small space.

 

Day 353