Who else is suicidal? Join the conversation

Let's talk here. You have to answer these questions first:
1. When did you start being suicidal?
2. Did the covid thing have anything to do with it?
3. Do you think this world is evil?
4. Where do you see yourself in a year?

This is a judgement free zone. No proselytising. No delighting in other people's misfortune for you everyday sadists out there.

For example: I feel dead inside. I feel like a ghost. Every day I think about killing myself. Covid was the end of me when it first started, destroying any semblance of a normal life for me. And you can't judge me for saying that.

 

I've had suicidal thoughts for a long time, even as far back as when I was around 14/15. The thoughts have dramatically increased in recent years though and I've gotten much more comfortable with the idea of actually doing it, but I'm not going to do it for a variety of reasons.

It helped make things worse for me, there's no doubt about that, but I was plagued with suicidal thoughts before the pandemic even began.

I think there's a lot of cruelty in this world, yes, but as messed up as my personal life is I still believe there's a good amount of beauty and joy in the world too.

Hopefully in a better mental and physical state. I've been putting in a lot of effort recently to turn my situation around and I plan on continuing that effort. Unless I give up, things *should* be better for me a year from now, at least somewhat. Time will tell.

 

1. From my late teens to late twenties.
2. No. I was molested as a child.
3. No. The world is actually very beautiful. People can be evil but not all of them and not always.
4. I don't know yet; truth be told, I don't even know if tomorrow will come. Nothing is guaranteed after all.

 

The people saying life isn't so bad are usually the people that have their life in order. But for the unlucky ones life is just sadism and cruelty over and over again. There's only one certain thing in life: suffering. I thought good existed in this world but I'm proven wrong every day in ever increasing new lows. It's always the selfish parasites that feed of of creating misery for other people that get everything in life. The suffering of a victim will always be greater than the aggressor. People know this so they behave like scum in my country. I can't find a single decent person. Every person I've encountered until now has been a backstabbing, traitorous, selfish, cynical, liar, that can't be trusted for anything.