The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I’m sure that was hard to post. Good work being honest and getting right back on the program. This thing is tough and anyone can fall at any time. Thanks for sharing. We all support you.

 

Day 360 no PMO. Good day overall yesterday. Only one real problem. On my walk I came up behind a young lady and It took me longer that it should to shift my attention away from her. I eventually picked up my pace and passed her to avoid the distraction and had no real lingering thoughts. I feel I am getting better but need to reprogram my mind that random women I come across are not there to be objectified by me. She is not just a girl in tight pants. I need to show her more respect than that.

 

Still on day 0, but in a better place.

After the frick out I had over feeling lonely I took actions to help myself.
I’ve joined some groups for new people in Berlin so I’ll join meetups and game nights. I’ve talked to my wife about this long setback I had with porn and it feels good to come clean with her. And I had a good therapy session about porn.

@Ready to Stop @PeaceOnEarth108
Thank you both. It really really helped me to get back into reality.

 

@Slider8 @ListenPaul with a short delay, well done on becoming gray wizards! You two are real inspiration to me and everyone else here and I can’t wait to see you as white wizards

@Redemptionisrequired
You are a hero. Both for reaching this high of a number, but even more for being honest enough with yourself to reset it without giving yourself some excuses.


@Aim6
I think (and that is just my own opinion) that there is a huge difference between “normal” triggers and “super triggers". I try to think about it like a food, while KFC and McDonalds commercials show us extreme versions of food and coca cola is sweeter than anything that our brain could handle, we should avoid them at all costs because it would only hurt us in the long run. BUT, I think that being able to appreciate a great home cooked meal is still a positive thing, and that life would not be full without it.

Sex and beauty are not inherently evil. And there is a huge difference between looking at a person and being able to recognized that they look good in a positive way and looking at a person and seeing nothing an object to use for sex. I also used to have a problem with going to the gym, but after I’ve tried to shift the way I look at real life people and see them as people that try to live a better and healthier life, I think it’s okay to appreciate that. Trying to avoid any “real world trigger” would leave you afraid of your own shadow in the end. The world is beautiful, it’s just important to see the people in it as individuals that are also having “personhood” and not just objects. but of course, don’t stare, and don’t purposely put yourself in “extra” triggering situations just so you could be triggered…

 

Day 21

 

Day 5 completed!!

We need to come out of this slave.

All the best guys..!!

 

Day 2 !

 

I have fapped a lot in the past two months unlike last year but I never bothered about it much because the good side of it was I never watched porn for the past 3 months . But today my willpower was at the lowest and I just wanted to fap and then I watched porn for the first time in 3 months . I don't know why I let myself down so often .

Once you watch porn , and if you keep fapping; at some point of time you will start watching porn . I am going to do it the old way marking my days here coming here in case of any urges .

I am going to stay focused in my studies and not think anything else.

 

Check in day 143

 

Day 3

The physical urges are starting to come back, but I'm holding off the thoughts just fine; I've been playing it safe by blocking them if there is even so much as an inkling of one.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

Day 392 free of MO. Day 1 Free of Porn.

Words cannot express my gratitude to you all, thank you brothers. The amount supportive messages was heartfelt, I am very moved. Many of you mention that I am an inspiration, to me, you all are an inspiration to keep moving forward. I feel blessed to be part of this wonderful fellowship.


I intend to continue moving forward, it was a hard lesson that reminded me that regardless of the day to day struggle, study and practice and honing ones positive habits and skills, is all is necessary to continue on the path to freedom.

I have mentioned it in the past, the biggest challenge someone may face during a long streak is complacency. Temptation will arise with complacency, this is what occurred to me.

I do feel a pull today, temptation to return back to old habits. To numb myself out, but I will not. I return to my study and practice, I will review part of the following today:

I'm happy to see that someone translated even more to this, so I will have more to add in my notes.

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/6-years-clean-rebooting-as-the-best-remedy.135983/
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...oting-as-the-best-remedy.319427/#post-3157534

Stay strong!

Orc (The spell of porn is strong in you)

Hi @SZ zahw , I responded to your DM with detail.

Thank you @nerdy_owl ! I'm glad you find it helpful, my intent is to keep things as honest as I can. I will keep moving forward, that is a promise.

Thank you @stronaut2021 , you are right. I acknowledge the streak and if I did it once, I can do so again. Thank you for your kind words, I hope I can continue to inspire, as you all inspire me.

Thank you brother @RiseToGreatness , I appreciate all your kindness. I feel blessed to be part of the community you created.

You are right. My criteria may be a bit tight, but I don't want to cut corners. I watched 15 mins of substitutes on 1 day and 30 mins or so on the other, with around 5-7 mins of porn. I'm reseting because, as you mentioned, I resorted to avoidance of certain key emotions and developments, things that I should of addressed. You are also correct about a more frequent check in, I think that played its hand in my complacency. I will aim to check in a minimum of 3 days a week now. You can hold me to it brother !

We share that difficulty, adjustment to our new step in our respective careers..for me it is the fear of failure that really loomed in to my mind. It is as you say, the reboot is the priority, regardless of environment, it's a lesson that arose from this reset.

I haven't watched a Universalman video in a while, he was part of my study. I will return to that as well this weekend, for now I am doing another dopamine detox today too.

Thank you my brother, I promise I will not binge and continue forward! We will destroy the ring together.

The bond of our fellowship is strong, I feel the same for each of you.

@ListenPaul You are very kind my brother. Being compared to a character such as Aragorn is a huge compliment, I thank you, and I thank you for supportive words. I have sat with , appreciated and acknowledged what you mentioned about the length of my streaks. It gives me strength, because I know if I did it once, I can certainly do so again.

You mention feeling as a hobbit along this journey, the hobbits were the bravest of the fellowship. You are strong my friend, as I give you inspiration, so do you. Your posts inspire me and many others, let us continue forward together!

@EpsilonDelta , thank you my friend! As I mentioned to others, as I inspire you, you all inspire me as well ! I have also enjoyed watching your progression as well. As we both attempt to practice Qigong as well. Your support gives me strength, I promise I will not turn to binging and I will continue forward on the path. Let us keep moving forward together.

@kaerhal , thank you brother for having me in your prayers. I promise to move forward and I have learned a valuable lesson in complacency. I also wanted to congratulate you on beating your furthest streak, let us keep moving forward together!

@PeaceOnEarth108 thank you brother, your support and kind words mean a lot to me. I am inspired by you as well my friend, I want us all to succeed together. It's not that we will never be safe from porn, more so that we must not be complacent in our good habits, this is what lead me to my lapse. Remaining vigilant is key, destroying the Ring and the act of avoidance. Let's keep moving forward together.

@Ready to Stop thank you brother, yes it was difficult to write down. But it is necessary, we are here to overcome something and being honest is crucial. The momentary lapses I experienced are a good lesson for me and I hope it helps provide caution for others. As I support you all as well! Let us keep moving forward together.

@newbobido Thank you for your kind words! Yes, I want to keep things honest. Freedom would not be achieved if I were to continue without mentioning anything.

 

Day 13!
Other day another challenge, woke up early, worked out and ate healthy. Keep strong my brothers and sisters.

 

Congratulations @ListenPaul on the ninety!!! 3 months ain't 3 days.

@Redemptionisrequired i'm sad to read your message, but i got a great lesson from your post: never let your guard down! I hope you succeed comrade, life is made from ups and downs, fights that you've won and fights that you've lost, do not let your guard down again, do not lose hope, maintaing a steady and firm course towards the ocean and set sail. We all are going to be here for you if you need us.

"Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, Rage against the dying of the light."

Strenght & Honor!

 

Day 8!
I'm still here!
I'm an Uruk-Hai today!

 

I haven't been very good checking in here but I hope I still have your blessings to attempt to destroy the ring.

I have been stuck in a bad rutt for months now, cannot really figure out why I'm having such a hard time. I relapsed again today after a 5 days streak, which is a good number compared to what I've accomplished in recent times. I think things will start to look up soon

 

Day 2