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When I Am Going to be Healed

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Freeddom_Taker, Feb 13, 2022.

  1. I'm battling with depression, paws, chemical imbalance in the brain, every withdrawals associated after quitting pmo ON and OFF. Since I've discovered nofap in 2014, I've done 16mo harmode and countless 30-60days streaks.

    Why I'm still suffering with chemical imbalance, sexual exhaustion and paws after all this time???

    What I am missing here???
     
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  2. Negan©

    Negan© Fapstronaut

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    Originally i wrote this in aome other thread but i think this will help you..
    One thing that i really would advise against is being caught in that vicious nofap , relapse cycle..i was in there for approx 1.5 years and during that time all i wanted to do was kill myself..i didnt know why but i could feel the noose around my neck..
    But now as ive gained more clearity regarding these issues i can tell you that what youre doing is tormenting your brain and it in return is tormenting you ...PMO addiction in itself is a whole crazy ass game of rise and fall in the levels of several hormones and the same goes with nofap..in my nofap journey ( 35 days in) im experiencing crazy crazy things..one day im as energetic as a pitbull and the other day i cant get off the bed..one day im reading an entire book and the other day a simple newspaper article is giving me a tough time..
    Now youre playing with the both of them..
    Each time you start nofap youre going on a war and each time you relapse after that youre going on another war..this cycle creates an entire frenzy if hormonal influx , rise and dip...
    YOURE EITHER IN OR YOURE OUT..
    and youre not alone in feeling disconnected hermit-y and anti social..ive been there..
    Just tag along with me..start your journey today..everythings gonna be fine..
     
  3. I've been bed ridden since 2018. Woke up by 12pm due to sore body and brain fog. I used to stay in bed before but it became worse by 2018. Every thing I've done or will do, it has to be forced. Body is stiffed and felt 90-100 years old.

    I suspected every relapse in my state is a tortured. Things became worse 2-3 weeks after a relapse. The withdrawals were so unbearable along with stress and depression that I went back to pmo.
     
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  4. See a doctor maybe, might be able to help or prescribe something.
     
  5. Done that already. They couldn't find or explain what's going on with my situation.
     
  6. Hustypeta

    Hustypeta Fapstronaut

    In may opinion, what you are missing, is patience. I know I know, easier said than done, but I believe that only thing we can do to overcome this addiction (and livnig a meaningful life), is struggling every day trying to become a better versions of ourselves and hoping for a better tomorrow. When are you gonna heal, you ask? I don't know. But I know it's still worth to try and fight, even though there is no end in sight.

    I think that everything is gonna be fine. Since you have already managed to do 16 months free of PMO, you are on good path and I belive it's just matter of time when those paws will go away. Anyway, good luck and see you later.
     
  7. Negan©

    Negan© Fapstronaut

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    I know what it feels like and i can understand what youre going through but theres only one way , the way forward , that is stop PMO and lead a clean healthy life ...
     
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  8. I sense much anxiety in the posts by new forum users.
    Look eventually you will get sick of relapsing and stop relapsing...for some it takes longer, it has taken many years for me....but now it's just one day at a time.
    Stop freaking out about relapses, holy shit, they happen...shit happens in life
     
  9. Anonymous86

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    You've been bed ridden since 2018? How are you able to have an income?
     
  10. Staying at my mom house and do part time job at night especially when PAWS give me a break. Also I do delivery services and made me some money.
     
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  11. Negan©

    Negan© Fapstronaut

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    Stay strong man..its gonna be ok..when you start earning good money spend it on your mom to compensate for her help and support..
     
  12. Anxiety strikes as I'm driving on the highway. I pulled over and typed this....

    Silly me skipped an exit and thought this wouldn't happen anymore.. Wrong!
     
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  13. I don't know why I'm still suffering from withdrawals after all this time on nofap.
    Why I'm still depressed and feel a normal.
    I don't even know why I'm still alive.....
     
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  14. Hustypeta

    Hustypeta Fapstronaut

    Being alive means suffering. All people suffer and many of them much more than you. But they still keep going, because one life is all they got. That's all we can do, I am afraid. But it's still better than to not be alive, I guess.
     
  15. Master Builder

    Master Builder Fapstronaut

    Movement creates energy.

    I work in construction, and when on hollidays being less active (getting up later, no "hard" work besides excercise, no 12 hr work days, enganged mostly in "relaxing" activities) i feel MORE tired/less energetic than when im working 80-90 hour workweeks.

    What i believe is happening to you is that you have been in such a long "inactive" and "depressive" cycle that it has become your default way of functioning. You probably have the unconscious belief that while trying to get rid of PMO, this is how you should feel.

    I urge you to drop all no-pmo tryouts and focus on nofap etc and simply start focussing on DOING and being active (get an active job, excercise, run, swim, ...)! During this process dont try to make any links between how you feel, what you are doing and wether you pmo'd or not. Just focus on doing, being, acting. I bet after a week or 2 you will feel much better.
     
  16. Porn, Masturbation and Orgasm are poison. They are the cause of severe brain fog which will block your thoughts. You won't be able to have clear judgement. Confusion, depression, anxiety, social isolation, Anhedonia, Agoraphobia, fearfulness, Tinnitus etc... Are all results of heavy pmo use.

    Now for people who say I have to move it exercise. I'm unable to do these due to Agoraphobia, social, massive brain fog, trembling after exercising. Funny I used to work out back in my fapping days, even on nofap. My brain couldn't handle those workouts right now. It's seems the receptors are fried....
    It's just a waiting game.
     
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  17. People suffering but not that type of suffering from pmo detox. At least they don't have brain fog or chemical imbalance to fight with life.
     
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  18. Alpha Force

    Alpha Force Fapstronaut

    Even if you do not feel like exercising, you still need to do it. Do a push up, a body squat or even talk a walk. You can't just stop doing anything. It might make you relapse
     
  19. Master Builder

    Master Builder Fapstronaut

    This proves my point. You have anchored it in your mind (you have a conviction) that you SHOULD feel and experience all these things due to heavy pmo-use.

    You dont even believe you can heal or feel better. What you believe is that you have to play the waiting game.... Wait for how long? Forever?

    This mindgame is a self fullfilling prophecy, a hole you have dug for yourself, and you need to get out of it!

    You can only do this by dropping all beliefs and convictions you have about pmo and its effects and start living your life! (That is essentially what recovery is, you start to experience life and gain the conviction you can be healed).

    Please just start doing. Stop thinking. Fuck brain fog. Fuck fear. Fuck any type of withdrawal symptom or anything negative you can think of. Fuck porn. Fuck PMO. Fuck the pc. Fuck social media. Push all that shit away and set some damn goals for yourself.

    Just attack life. Live it. Set goals.

    "Today im going ro crack out 200 push-ups and that makes me a beast"

    "Today my place will be spotless, even the king can dine at my table"

    "Today i am clean shaved, well dressed and will speak to some random women, like noone else dares to do"

    You are using symptoms you BELIEVE you MUST have (obviously you will experience them, placebo effects are proven and sometimes sttonger than actual chemical compounds) as an excuse to not live your life. WAKE UP. LIVE.

    You are not alone. Ive had the same excuses. Some times in my life i felt like shit and did nothing productive at all, just like you. But then i got sick of it and just started DOING, BEING, LIVING, regardless of how i felt! And you know what? It only took a couple of weeks and i was back on track!

    You can do this too, but only if you start DOING IMMEDIATELY and BELIEVING you can heal in just a short perood of time!

    Cmon man, pick up your lazy ass and crack out some push-ups, build a lounge-set, even chopping some firewood will do. Why dont you go for a run or do some rope-skipping? Keep trying trying trying, every day at least 1 thing. Eventually something will make you feel good, but only if you STOP FOCUSING ON THE FACT YOU ARE FEELING LIKE SHIT.
     
  20. Master Builder

    Master Builder Fapstronaut

    Bro you asked what you are missing... I told you my opinion.

    Now you tell me to stfu?
     

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