A man of God, but still a slave.

I think the thing you know is that it is a struggle that I've been fighting a long time. I've been working hard at this for 3 months and I made 30 days first attempt but in recent weeks I failed. I think you need to keep working at it. Keep striving and fighting. When you fail get up and start again. I guess overtime your will to resist will get stronger. It's really great that you've been able to be so open with your wife. You might want to get a accountabilty group. I'm in one and it has helped me. It helped me see that a lot struggle and are trying to overcome this. God bless and keep working at it. Hope this is some help.

 

Welcome!

There is a lot of wisdom here, look around, you'll learn, and gain understanding and freedom.

Below my comment is a link to what has helped me.

Keep coming back!

 

Welcome to this community. I would suggest you to read some success stories of others so that you can convince yourself to quit porn. Trust me, i was addicted for 13 years but now i am committed to quit PMO. I am on my days 13.

Here my story goes: http://nofap.com/forum/index.php?th...e-in-second-chance-to-undo.47248/#post-326622

 

Got to say I'm struggling myself. I am very motivated. My problem is I get past some days 11 to 5 and I have a really hard time. This is day 3 and I'm here at the early morning trying to get over a tempting moment.

 

Keep fighting. I'm pleased that I got through and I still working at it. I need the support too so it is a mural thing. It's really difficult to talk about with anyone I know. I feel a great shame and dissapointment in myself. I also don't want to let down my family and friends. So this is where I come to vent all this out. It's so tough. Before July I never shared this with anyone but I finally said enough I don't want to live like this. It's destroying me internally. So i badly need support too. Keep fighting and God bless.

 

Hello @Max Holland! Welcome to this beautiful, cheering community. You definitely seem to have important things in your life that motivate you in kicking the habit of PMO. There are a lot of us here who are still tenaciously fighting to get rid of the addiction, but also a great number of people who have already beaten it, yet still sharing their experiences and continuing to encourage and inspire others on their journeys. You aren't alone. Some have started from a very similar place where you are right now successfully overcoming their addictions and I'm certain you can do it too!

You may want to check out this prayer group for encouragement and accountability. http://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/prayer-group.39691/

 

Sup brother Max. Man how awesome your wife is in on this with you. Mine left me some thirteen years ago and although she never gave me a clear answer as to why, I suspect it had a lot to do with my addiction, both directly and indirectly.

So...I gave my life to Jesus after He took my second bride to be with Him, and just like you I just couldn't get passed my addiction even in Christ. I found myself getting frustrated at Him for not helping me. Even found myself thinking He was laughing at me and my struggles. Who can blame him though. I would watch porn for hours before bed then try to pray to him with all of these porn images I had watched rifling through my head at light speed while I was talking to Him. In retrospect that's when i discovered I had a real problem, just couldn't really put my finger on it and didn't know it was affecting the rest of my life until a few years later.

I'm kinda rambling here...my apologies. Trying to keep my brain busy,lol. Like you, I have finally made a public commitment by coming here. I want to be free. I want to believe I can really do this. I want to have real hope and real friends. Not asking the Lord for help though this time.

 

Great that you're here! I'm one week in, and I'm working on strategies as I go, to try to stay one step ahead of temptation, at least for as long as I can...
I've found that a strong "Why" helps, and also alternative activities to run to.
I need to be clear about what rewards I get by doing this, and what's at stake. If I'm just fighting to not screw up, I probably won't push as hard as I do if I'm fighting to save my marriage...

But what I really want to say, is that God looks at you with nothing but love. (Romans 8) There's nothing you can do to make him love you less (or more)!

He looks at you through the filter of Jesus, who took your imperfection to the cross. (Sin now is not knowing him, it's not about how many ladies you helped across the street or if you prayed every Wednesday.) Sin is dead now, but Jesus lives, and loves you!
No. Matter. What.
I hope you get something from this.

...and if you're going through hell, just keep going!

 

Nice Jakob thank u. Max welcome.ive recently given my life to Christ and it has become evident to me too that honoring God is honoring me and my life... All we can do is try our best
God bless