Accountability for All

Day 1 in the list!! It going good and i am also good.

 

Day 5

 

Dayyyyy 2 for me! Feel miserable but optimistic. Headphones died so had to run over to Best Buy to get a new pair. I've got a pretty good set! You can "feel the base" on these things so I can vibe to music while my skull slowly shatters into a million pieces. It's the sort-of-stupid-but-really-fun choice, cause why not live a little during this thing? It's better than sitting at home all day jacking off to anything that moves.

The good news is that I think my mind's starting to slowly shift out of porn. The urges are still there by the bucketful, but it's not constantly flooding my brain like yesterday. Gonna try and look up therapists today to help me deal with my addiction, anyone got any suggestions?

 

Thanks i will try this too, also all things works it’s a 3 sec before u will be pulled into. How u can increase this ur success and these methods are not stupid. Porn is stupid making bz all the bodies are same only difference is heart. That’s is my reason to quite porn I want my heart and brain together. Remember the words of gravili (* don’t remember full name) “ Two person alone in a room and have a laugh and talk“ that is my friend too deep of a thought.
Thanks you once again.

 

219 days!

I'm forever grateful for/to this community <3

 

If youtube's leading you to porn, it might be best to cut it out altogether. It's an entertainment source and usually one based off of those quick dopamine hits. A good book might do you much better!

 

In the past 154 days I have:

* PMO'd 9 times but not fully relapsed
* MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed
* Averaging 17.11 days on strict PMO nofap
* 34 days straight nofap streak so far

 

Day 2!! Even though its a somewhat small milestone, I feel really happy I made it to day 2 I slept very little because I got a bit anxious about my exam this morning but now I'm gonna have a nice nap and try and keep the demon whispering in my ear to relapse out of my head. Only 88 more days to go!

 

Day 0

 

Day 6 and it's going smooth so far!

 

Define what is to long to prevent problems, so like 10 seconds of 1 thumbnail

 

Day 41 today, again trying to get done a lot for school and than I will be on track for almost all subjects on school.

 

Hi everyone, its almost a week now and i pmo'd just now, rn feeling very disappointed and i am kinda angry on my self, feels like am a loser,But on the brighter side i think i also found my biggest trigger and it's being alone on the weekend's or being all alone by myself in general on any day for that matter i need to do something to replace this habit and to break my pattern. Staying away from internet and mobile is not gonna work cause i already tried that in the past, So i am asking you guys to help with some ideas on how should i replace watching porn when i am alone with something else that will have similar kind of results on my brain as watching porn( i mean dopamine etc). I think playing pubg or any other addictive game will help? Idk,
To sum it up i want u guys to suggest me something very addictive to do on my mobile that will keep me engaged and kill all the time that i have until i am not alone again, hope u guys will help a brother. Thanks.

 

In the past 155 days I have:

* PMO'd 9 times but not fully relapsed
* MO'd 1 time but not fully relapsed
* Averaging 17.22 days on strict PMO nofap
* 35 days straight nofap streak so far

 

Day 1

 

Day 4: Feel like a soldier crawling through the mud towards enemy trenches. Bullets are whizzing over my head and I'm just trying not to get stuck. Dad's coming around later today to celebrate my birthday (about a week ago but this is the first time he's able to visit) and we have a fun day planned. It'll be nice to have a day to relax!

 

Day 42, come on!

 

(copied from my journal)

Day 5 (evening) So I had a fun past couple of days! Dad came down with his girlfriend to celebrate our birthday, and we had a fun itinerary planned. Got a good haircut, shave, and wax, went to the trampoline park, then had dinner at a really nice place. It was all high end stuff too, way beyond what I normally would consider. It feels nice to get taken care of every once in awhile, and it's nice to look like a civilized human being again. Although I do feel a bit guilty about getting special treatment without having done anything to deserve it. Not as guilty as last year, when I got treated to custom sneaker outfitting and a pedicure. (which I'd highly recommend even though I haven't had one since) When the salesman brought out two different shoes for me to try, they asked me which pair I liked better, and I felt genuinely miserable about it. Like I hated that they wanted my opinion for my own shoes. I'd genuinely be happy with whatever they picked, but I felt like whatever shoes I picked would be the wrong ones. I felt like I wasn't the best expert on my own interests. Things went better this go around, mostly cause there wasn't any major decision making lol. Got some clothes which was nice and some gift cards as well.

It was fascinating going to the high end salon place they picked out and watching the professionals do their work. Like they managed to shave me without any pain whatsoever which never happened with me. At the very least I hit a pimple or scrape my neck or something. It was like watching a master artist constructing their masterpiece ( on the ugliest canvas possible) and it was fascinating to experience. It was a good glimpse into the person I'm aspiring to become, not just to experience things like this on the daily but provide those sorts of experiences to someone else. It was similar with the dinner, we went to a pretty posh place where we got a 3 course meal and a shared desert. It's the sort of place where you have to be on your best behavior and follow all those weird sorts of upper-crust rules, which I generally tend to struggle in. But there was an air of mutual respect that I found very captivating. People treated you with a level of professionalism and dignity that I don't commonly experience, and you of course did the same. It's definitely something to aspire to! It was a very eye-opening experience, which isn't saying much given how much time I spend shut up inside my university's art building. All in all a fun day, and inspiring for the future.

Of course the next day I went to Cici's pizza and gorged on the pizza buffet like the pig that I am, so clearly we have a long way to go ;w; It's super interesting to compare the two environments, but I'll save that for a later post.

 

Day 3 in the list!!

 

Day 0 ( Relapsed )

After series of relapses, and not even 2 day of streak, i decided to get back on track

February and March was the worst month for NoFap, i had no real streak, only at most 3 days which is only once

Alright, first goal is to reach the 1st week again