The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I’m going to reset the counter.

Went to the bathroom with my phone today even though I knew it was dangerous. Ended up doing the excet routine to bypass my blockers, opened porn and stayed on for a couple of minutes before stopping myself.

I’m really happy that I didn’t fall into the usual pitfall of “if you are going to reasat anyway, you might as well PMO once (or 5 times)”.

So I’ve edged. And that is shit. But I’m not completely lost. I didn’t binge, I didn’t even give up on this streak. I’m back to zero, but I don’t feel like a nazgul right now.

 

Day 5!
Now I know the reason of my adiction. The reason to have an addiction is that you are trying to fill something that you don't have in your life, and you try to fill that empty space with your addiction. My empty space is lonelyness. I have to take the time to hangout more, that will make me fill better.

 

Check in day 185

 

Day 8, trod on!

 

day 77

Yesterday and today I had some relapses, but not something very serious.

 

Just time to check in and shout out my barbaric "Yawp" to my fellowship!

 

15 days completed - a new Hobbit arrives. It's a relief to finally breathe fresh air.

 

Day 90

It's been a rocky journey, but as I approach the Black Gate of Mordor I've also reached a significant milestone. I'm filled with a new and fresh perspective, wielding the Flame of Arnor as a Grey Wizard!

Truth be told, I don't think I feel vastly different to Day 0 - but I suppose that's all part of a 'new normal'. My battle with PMO has changed; I'm no longer fighting it in the mud and dirt, losing over and over again and finding it increasingly harder to pick myself up again, but I'm now fighting on solid ground.

I'm by no means free from PMO. I feel it's wounds nearly every day, but I trust that these wounds will one day fade into scars, scars that will remind me of the battle I faced, and the battle I won.

 

Day 410

 

Alright I've had a difficult day in terms of cravings, I managed to get through what seems to be the worst of it thankfully. Pretty much at an all time low, but that means the only way to go now is up. This is day 6, meaning if I make it to tomorrow then I've got a full week! I'm gonna make it, I can feel it

 

Thank you, brother, I will try my best.

Day 108 complete

I am fantasizing a bit too much

 

Day 9 complete!

At several points throughout the day I felt like peeking, but I think I've managed to create a funny new habit: whenever I'm tempted to peek, rather than going into my phone to get around my blocker, I just double-check that my blocker is still active and then put my phone away. Maybe not feasible long-term but it's helped. I wonder if my switching back over from cold showers to hot showers has had anything to do with why this streak has felt so much easier thus far. Maybe that extra bit of enjoyment during the day has made up for something I was lacking. Cold showers are still in my toolkit as a way to fight big urges and as a punishment if I ever relapse, though!

@Ready to Stop already said basically everything I was going to say, so I'll just second his words. I heard an analogy once with an addiction to smoking: if someone offers you a cigarette, don't say you're trying to quit, just say you don't smoke!

@kaerhal Keep it up! You're doing really well.

St. Benedict of Nursia, pray for us!

 

Day 238 - end

I'm studying, living with a friend, away from my family. Meeting a lot of ppl (mostly girls). That's why I might not talk so much right now. But I'm happy with my current situation and I feel I'll be even happier day by day. I'm also tired but it's a "worthy" way of spending my energy and life lol.

Socializing a lot, learning to be myself with others deeper and deeper until I can be loose...

Also looking for a job

I feel my life without porn and bad dopamine sources (videogames, instagram, etc) is improving (and had improved) my life even more than I thought.

Probably starting gym tomorrow. I'm in good shape but I want to be in better shape.

I didn't write all of this to brag, but to give testimony of the big good changes my life is having with good habits, without bad dopamine, and obviously, God's grace. It's not a lie that quitting porn makes your life much better.

 

day 1

 

Day 22

Today was the closest call I've had this streak... I was a hair away from giving in! I just barely survived. There's perhaps not much more I should say then that. I watched a few videos about pied (which is why I'm trying nofap) and that brought me back to my senses.

I've discovered that I have a very bad relationship with money; rather I'm scared of it. Both scared to make too much of it and scared to spend too much of it. This is really keeping me from progressing in life.

 

Day 3
Yesterday was tough but I made it. It's incredible how much I forgot how hard this is.

Wishing you all a wonderful and calm April

 

My favorite part of that whole post was “But I'm happy with my current situation and I feel I'll be even happier day by day.” Keep up the awesome work!!!

 

Day 403 no PMO. We head to the beach tomorrow. Should be a good time. I’ll still be checking in with you all every morning. Have a great day everyone!