The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 1.

 

28 days – The PMO forces were at your tail but you crossed the Ford of Bruinen, leaving them behind. The House of Elrond is in sight!

Urges were less bad today. It's almost like they were washed away in the river!

 

Had been peaking again (p-subs), darnit. Not so much a full relapse but still one of the habits that needs to go away.

Overall seeing more and more improvements and new habits kicking in, feel more energized and optimistic overall.

Currently on day 2 again.

Day 2 - Orc, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

Day 9

Went for a 2,2km walk today, starting my virtual journey through Middle Earth ‍<3
It's not that much, but it's a start. Especially because I am way out of shape right now ^^,,
Hoping to average to 5-7km at some point. But with time. I want to have patience for this journey. For everything.

I'm wishing you strength my brothers and sisters, thank you for this inspiring community!
You all make me feel less alone with this battle.

 

keep on the good work.The most important step is NOT the first step.The most important step is always the next step.

 

On day 8 presently.I am an Uruk-Hai now.

 

Day 409 no PMO.

 

245 days

 

Dawn of the 20th day.

 

Check in day 192

 

Long time no talk everyone!

Felling the pull of PMO and felt that it would be healthy to come here and touch base. I have been sober for over a month but a number of forces have been making PMO seem like a good out. Just wanted to check in for a hit of accountability!

I hope you are all healthy and doing well!

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO) IN THE LORD OF THE RINGS CHALLENGE

"As long as I have breath in my body, my fate is my own."
-Talion of Gondor, upon donning Isildur's ring

I have already PMO'ed this morning, so tomorrow my quest begins.

 

Day 2

Didn’t get the job, got into a huge fight with my girlfriend about porn. Shit kind of hit the fan. But it turned out great actually. It gave us a chance to really get everything out in the open after a lot of time in denial (for both of us).

I’m going outside right now for a night of board games with complete strangers. I need to find new friends and a sense of community here.
I have urges, but I can’t fail anymore. There is too much on the line.

 

Day 2!!

 

day 84

I used to be very addicted to porn especially with a fetish which I could not control. For a few days now I feel like I do not need it anymore! I do not think it has disappeared but it has definitely weakened!

 

Day 3!
Keep strong my brothers!

 

After a fall, enter on a loop ,try to fell again early , i came back to fellowship ,this is so big and i need all the help possible. I don't want to put 50 days on the trash. I will cut Y.T just using for value information at the moment.
Edit: Did exercise , that is a good relax, time to continue the journey.

 

Checking in. Had a very strong urge to masturbate this morning while taking my first hot shower in days. Resisted it, partly by reminding myself I had to check in here today still and partly by reminding myself I was due for a FANOS check in with my wife tonight. Sometimes it's the small things that get me through difficult moments, but thankfully those tough urges seem to be fewer and farther between.

 

Day 97

Fell asleep after switching off my alarm so I didn’t make it to the gym this morning - my alarm is now placed at the other end of my room so this doesn’t happen again so easily!

Been writing my essay all day and feeling quite fidgety when I have to focus on something and read a lot, tends to bring about urges of relapsing as a ‘break’ from working. That would be a mistake, and instead I was just a bit more disciplined with my time to make sure I left my desk when temptation surfaced. I reckon I’ll have everything finished by Saturday evening - let’s hope so at least!