The Harry Potter Challenge

day checking in
Problems with the death eaters.

 

Resetting to hospital wing Day 0

 

Day 6 checking in

 

Day 3 in the Hospital Wing

 

yeah I relapsed multiple times hopefully, I start a really nice fresh start

 

Wait so If I do those 7 Days I would be in Hogwarts and I wont be a muggle?

 

Once reaching Hogwarts , the status of muggle disappear forever.

Once you become a wizard you always wizard.

 

noice

 

Big Update

Hello everyone!
I have big updates to share over here...

First of all, thing are getting better even though I don't see it yet. Today I had another suicide ideation crisis, thankfully my online friends helped me go through it and I didn't do anything stupid at all. I just feel lonely, sad, frustrated, angry, etc. But I'm glad I didn't hurt myself...

However, I did something I didn't really know how to take. I watched porn again (and masturbated of course) in order to distract myself from the depression and suicidal thoughts. I hadn't watched a single video since November 17th, 2021 and I'm proud of that.
And today it didn't feel that bad, although I have to recognize I kinda regret doing it I had promised myself to never watch that shit again but I did it, in order to save myself from something worse I guess...

My focus now is on staying alive for my trip. Bad stuff has happened at home. Now I hate my parents, they have destroyed an important part of me with their over protection and I will need a lot of time and distance to even consider forgiving them. I need to go for my trip so badly, I'm optimistic to travel on May 1st and finally get out of my room after 25+ months of social isolation and depression.

On other news, I am thinking about finding a partner on a daily basis. I really want to get to know someone worth my love, and start building a healthy relationship with her. I'm really lonely and I think that if I find a good girl who appreciates my traits I will improve my life so much... because I have been working so hard on other areas of my life, and I want to balance it all out with someone that cares for me without expecting stuff back.
Usually people just want to use me, I'm really sad for that, but I don't lose hope I might find a good person to share my life with soon... I just wish I could happier staying alone, I don't want to feel desperate but I accept I'm so lonely that I end up thinking more about it every time

And finally, my economical problems haven't disappeared. I'm still worried about it, but not as much as some weeks ago. I'm accepting that it's not my fault that my current conditions are these, it's my parent's responsibility and I'm already doing my best to help them. I am enough. They are the ones that have failed me.
I just hope I don't lose more money and that through my work in the US I can get some good money to pay my family's debt and start investing as we should have done a long time ago.

I still feel hopeless more often than optimistic, but I want to believe things will improve soon. I really hope it happens, otherwise I might end up taking bad decisions again.

Please if you read this don't hesitate to drop me some motivation, I really need it to keep going...
I'm so close to change my life, but I need a lot of support to keep going, because the fight hasn't been easy at all during all these past months...

It's not over until I win.

 

Day 16 Hogwarts Year Two

 

Dear @Beasthunter1998 ,

stay strong.

checking in I am on day 11.(10 days completed successfully).

 

Day 14 - Year 2

 

Day 8 — Gryffindor — Year 1

 

Day 7

 

Dear @Hopeful Dreamer ,

you stay strong from now on, I feel that you are the inspiration to me because of you streak of nofap(5 month 25 days) that's the longest I have seen among the faptronauts who are joined recently.

I hope you will in whatever job that you are going to join in US. I wish to see that your streak be doubled.

All the best for your future.

 

Dear @Percy_Jackson ,

you stay strong. we are all with you.
whenever the urges are strong, think about your last best streak. that is working for me.

if your streak is 10 days try to double your streak. I think that's the best way to beat the urges.

and take the focus of your mind elsewhere .

 

day checking in:

 

Day 0

 

You can do it! after all you're wizard! , show to this thing muggle, what an exceptional wizard is capable of do.
Try another strategy, i was inspired on the section of success stories they left some useful tools there for make the way a little easy.

 

Day 4 in the Hospital Wing