Thinking of suicide

Hello,

I’m sorry to hear that you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing both the ups and downs during the reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings you are having won’t last forever. It will get better with time, if you are patient and wait.

In the meantime, please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis, we often need someone their to put our lives in perspective. So please contact someone who can help and don’t hang up on them. The International Association for Suicide Prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world. Also, if you don’t feel up to actually talking to someone on the phone, StopSuicide maintains a list of online instant messaging and chat suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes it feel like you don’t have any more options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you, and we will all be cheering for you to get through this!

 

Hey man! I am with you. I also had suicide ideas that my mind telling me "Wtf are you doing? Why are you living?" Well say screw you! You do what you got to do brother. I relapsed today and I have no motivation, I mean no emotion at all. You are young, which means you have higher chance of wining your addiction. Make a plan and fight this! Your future self will thank you. DO NOT EVER GIVE UP! you can hit me up if you want to talk anything and you are not alone. We are all not alone we all have one goal: being free from PMO

 

Hi dude.
I am also 17 and I understand how you feel. I am addicted to porn for around 5 years now. And had same condition as yours. I dont have any disorder or something but I mean to say I had very little success in the past 3-4 years. My highest streak is just 15 days and I too dont really have much friends with whom I talk daily. Every time I had a relapse I thought that this was my last time I would never watch it again but that last time never came. Four years back my life was hell, as I didnt even manage to make a streak of 2 days. I am shy and underconfident guy tbh and porn addiction adds even more problems to this.
But lately joining lately joining this forum has helped me as I am able to make a streak of at least 5 days. I just had made it to one week. I know its a very low streak but I know its way better than what it was few years back. Suicide isnt the option to all of the misery. It will do nothing but harm your parents who have hopes from you. I joined this forum this february itself and I have some people with whom I talk everyday. We dont know each other but still support each other, you should do the same. Be active on this forum, post your journal daily, ask for help, make new friends. Small things like these have a big impact in quitting the addiction.
We can talk on this forum or even talk on discord. We can be friends if you want to and support each other everyday. Looking forward to talk with you.
Stay strong dude. I wish you luck.

 

There are so many people like you bro, being fucked by the pmo. Being an addict doesn't mean you have to try, fail and then end your life . Being an addict is an opportunity to create a far more better life. You must believe in you and do the work to be a better man.

You just end your life here, and everyone will weep for 1 month, then you are just a memmory and a tomb. No one cares anymore and that the reality. But if you fight now and become a great motivation to the world, this world and humanity will remember you always.


I am not giving you hope i am giving you a chance. Just stand up and do some work, shed some sweat, roar like a lion and create some fking history.

Your destiny is to create a better world for coming generations not to end up like a coward. If my word doesn't motivate you it's ok. But atleast try again. Just try a 10 more times in nofap. In that 10 times failure or success you will learn and experience so much things. Using that experience you can fight again.

The girl that ghosted you....let her feel guilt for doing that to you......with your success.......please be a successful man.......it's easy....only thing needed is you have to try and try until you became success.

 

oh woe is me, the super depressed most painful existence in the history of everything.

 

Hi, I'm sorry to hear about that. I have also been obsessed with porn in the past. and I can't say with confidence that I'm completely free of its influence now. But when I beginned to nofap, I feel happier and more hope in my life. Maybe you could try put less energy into negative things, but seeking brilliant things in your life. You can try to learn something, when I come to college, I find the course is so funny and have many fun in it. The nofap also become easier when you are occupied by something.

What's more, you are not alone, I believe everyone in this forum are willing to help you, including me. Hope you can find more fun in the life. Good luck to you!

 

I'm really sorry you had to see your grandmother bleeding. That she passed that is very sad and painful but especially to have that memory with your mom screaming. Terrible for her and you, very sorry for you.
You'll hear a lot of people tell you you're depressed. I don't know, none of my business but you might want to take that seriously since if they're right it would be very unfortunate to get wrong. But I have experience with "nothing enjoyable for me to do... Fd in the head... Laying anger on other people... Life is crumbling... Didn't want to do anything... No one to talk to... No purpose, goals". I was just talking to someone I've known very well for a decade about it. I felt ask those things many times stretched out over years. Some if it was because of my addictive use of pornography and other acting out. So I have enjoyed a lot of relief for several years but it comes up, such as yesterday. I was having a hard time expressing it but I forgot that he had felt these things too or I could have just pointed to that, "you know the way you felt years ago, I've been getting that way the last few weeks". That was last of what it was tough to put into words was it wasn't sudden it was a little at a time so it was easy to blame something that happened to occur in the same range of time. When it cross up on you it's harder to even see it's happening or explain it.
I know what I'm going to do with mine: giving with no thought of return. I'm really glad to have this reminder, this opportunity to see that that is something enjoyable for me to do. I had been walking downtown yesterday struggling under the weight of "why isn't this making me happy" and I see, thanks to you, that I had my head on backwards: I was looking for gratification but I'm happier looking to give.

 

You create imaginary friends in your head ? What if your imagination has the power to bring those friends into your life? What I’m trying to say is imagination remains fantasy when we are wishing. But what if instead of wishing we accept these desires of our heart as real ?