Here goes nothing...

Okay so I don't know too much about how these work. Idk if this is the right place to check in or not but I just relapsed and I've decided that I need interaction with people on this same path as me. I blocked reddit because I used it to relapse so now I'm here.

I wanna use this as a daily check in. I wanna reply daily and post on this thread, and kinda just add some thoughts and musings. So for today, it's crazy that the thing propelling me to do this is post but clarity. I wouldn't have had the energy or motivation to do something like this without it. And I think that's why so many of us start so strong on our streaks and then flame out so quickly. We get that rush of dopamine and because of our addiction, especially if you've been trying to quit for a while,that rush can propel us for a few days. But, after a time, it fades. And the brain goes back to normal. And we sink. And there's nothing to get that stimulated state back other than porn. So we relapse again. And again. And again.

This time around, I'm gonna see if posting my thoughts and interacting more will help. So here goes nothing...