[14-CHALLENGE] THE FOURTEEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 2/14 complete!

@Inhale&Exhale Don't focus on the relapse that already happened. Think of how you can avoid the next one. Make a plan for one new thing you can do the next time you are about to relapse.

 

Fuck it. I'm tired of playing this game of "I have to reset my counter every day because I masturbate in bed as soon as I wake up.". It's over, I have to go back to my discipline...

My record of no P is almost 6 months. My record of no M is just 45 days, I have to get to those 90 days NOW.

I'm starting to believe that I've been depressed since I went back to M on February this year. It's been tragic months, I've been suicidal almost every week, and I think this has to do with the lack of energy I'm wasting every morning on stupid fantasies. Fuck those, I'm changing now.

In 9 hours I will complete my first 24 hours of no M, tomorrow morning I will STOP all those fantasies in my head and wake up. No more of this shit, I gotta change my life. Starting now, see you on the road brothers...

 

Day 9/14

 

day 1/14

I don’t have much time to write today since I’m going out of town for some work but we’re still going strong, ladies and gents.

hang in there!

 

DAY 13/14

Wooh! Almost done with the 14 day challenge! Went out to the mall feeling confident in myself and actually had a nice conversation with a cute girl working at Gamestop! I wouldnt have done that over two weeks ago when i was fapping multiple times a day.

 

Day 1 for me. Hope you all are well!!

 

I've just finished the seven day, so starting here.

Day 0/14 (10 total).

Brilliant! I hadn't noticed this connection before.

 

Day 3/14 complete!

 

Day 10/14

 

7/14 check in

 

I am a newcomer

 

Start the clock.

 

day 2/14

a lot of mental turmoil last night and this morning. these are withdrawal symptoms. favorite P scenes in front of my mind's eyes.
can't afford to be weak now, although it is sorely tempting. I don't want to reset my counter.

let's keep trudging on.

 

14/ 14 days finally made it to the end of this challenge! Gonna step up and try the 30 day challenge this was the hardest challenge ive done so far but im enjoying the challenge now.

 

Day 1/14 complete (11 total).

Let's go, people, keep on moving...

 

Day 11/14

 

Day 1 was Thursday, Day 2 was yesterday, and I just finished Day 3 in the wee hours of this morning. Hope everyone is having a nice weekend!

 

day 3/14

hope everyone is having a good weekend. no real temptation today or from last night.

a couple months ago, I had to end things with a girl I was involved with. the relationship was great while it lasted. but there were some things we hadn't made our peace about. last night, we hashed it out and things are now ended amicably. she's a great person. and our conversation has lessened the burden on my heart greatly.

stay strong everyone. I'm grateful to be here with you all.

 

Day 2/14 complete (12 total).

I'm continuing to move forward. Remembering why I'm here. Checking in on NoFap is more than accountability, it's reminders of what causes us to fall back to PMO, the reasons why we're choosing to leave it behind, and what we have to look forward to.

Right now, four things come to mind that have been really helpful for me in the last few months:
- my faith. Not just "I believe" but "I do". Reading, prayer, church, meeting with others - all the things that remind me of my identity in Christ, and so I choose to live in light of that. Not as an addict, but as someone chosen and saved by God's grace.
- meditation. It has been helping to reduce both the acute anxiety episodes and to calm down the general speedy, "rush rush what if rush rush" state of my mind, to help me be more present in each moment. I've got a long way to go yet, but this has been helping for sure. In being more present, I'm able to better identify my state of mind and the temptation to escape it with PMO, and change direction.
- self help stuff. Call it what you want - but basically anything which helps me learn more about what's going on inside me. It's been a mix of YouTube videos (eg personality and relationship videos), reading (currently on "Atlas of the Heart") and having real talks with close friends and family about life.
- avoiding alcohol. I used to have one or two drinks most nights, and then about 6 weeks ago I caught the 'rona. So because I was sick I really didn't feel like alcohol, then I wanted to give my body a better chance to heal, then decided to keep going and see what affect it had on my sleep and mood. It's definitely helped. I sleep better (still hate getting out of bed though ) and have a slightly clearer mind. The biggest things though are:
a) not turning to alcohol to help me deal with emotions, so I'm more likely to process them at least a little bit healthier...
b) not having the alcohol affect my decision making, i.e. the numbing effect on the pre-frontal cortex - the self-control/inhibitions part of the brain. I'm sure a medical professional would correct me on this over-simplification, but the general concept is true anyway. We all know that alcohol reduces our inhibitions and our ability to see past present desires.

This is where I'm at now. Trying to leave PMO in the past, and to keep moving forward with these things.

I'm so glad you were able to have a debrief with the girl. I know from experience what a helpful difference that can make. Wishing you all the best as you move ahead

 

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