The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 13 complete

Uruk-Hai

Getting close to transforming into a Hobbit

 

Day 2!
worked out and start reading a book about self esteem, will be helpful , keep strong my brothers!

 

Day 2 as an ORC!

 

Day 15 end, was an easy one

 

day 17

the sword Sting is still shining blue, but not as brightly as it was yesterday. I had to run some errands today; while walking through the crowd in the store, I felt like I had to purposefully look away from some young attractive women as they walked by, so that I wouldn't be gaping at obvious body parts and so I wouldn't be left with lingering bad thoughts.

the desire of wanting to O is a bit strong, and the M part of the demon is upon me. this is withdrawal symptoms in full effect.
we'll just be pushing through one minute at a time. I know the LOTR story proceeds to something new on day 18 and it'd be a shame to miss it because of a temporary indulgence.

stay strong Fellowship!

 

Check in day 212

 

Day 117

First day back at college, and the first time I’ve ever served at a Eucharist - it was a surreal experience but I think it went pretty well and I got a some positive feedback. Mostly it’s been great to see my friends again after a three week break, but now the work starts again!

I don’t know other people’s experience of this, but I feel that my body has now rebooted; this isn’t to say that I’m free from the burden of PMO, I still face temptation, but my body and mind don’t react to stimuli in the same way as it did prior to my reboot. Erections are less frequent, I get aroused but no longer in a way that seems uncontrollable, and even though I experience urges and temptation they don’t seem to have the same hold on me.

Even though this is good progress, I don’t consider myself free from PMO quite yet. This may be a burden or at least a scar that I’ll carry my whole life, and I want to see this challenge through to 500 days and beyond before I even consider myself to no longer be an addict.

 

Checking in day 165.

 

Day 5

Some urges that I had to fight with. I had a phone call with a recruiter of another company hopefully I'll have the interview next week. Also, next week I have an interview in another company for a team lead position. Still trying to advance in my professional career.

Stay Strong

 

Day 437

 

Just a check in today, no quotes and nothing new to report. Working hard, finding as much balance as possible, getting through and still living for the anticipated respite in June of being done with remodeling and the rest.

 

Day 4/tomorrow

 

Day 3 complete!

I thought I might go crazy today if I sat in front of my computer much longer without exercising, so just before lunch I did seven miles on the treadmill. This was the first time in five days I ran, and it felt great. Of course, I still spent most of the day in front of my computer, but that's what the end of the semester looks like. I have four pages remaining to write for one assignment, and my goal is to take as much time as I need to finish that before I run again. I'm a slow writer; the most important thing is for me to dedicate large chunks of time to it, and setting this limit for myself will provide the motivation I need to make it my top focus. No PMO will help too, haha. I need all the mental power I can get.

St. Anselm, pray for us!

 

Day 17 Complete

I even feel an urge to watch erotic or porn content, didn’t feel that for a while.

 

49 days – You reached the Doors of Durin, the West-door of Moria.

And died in front of them! I'm doing okay though and still didn't watch porn. Here lies my second longest streak that I can remember.

 

Day 16 checkin

 

I experienced it day before yesterday. It was so strong that my mind was like- let go of the streak, it's only 14 days. We will do it again."
The Panic button saved me, otherwise I would have relapsed. Sometimes the urges are so strong that they are very hard to control.

 

39 days, time flies when I'm not wasting time on pointless things.

 

Dawn of the 41st day.

 

Day 230 no PMO.