90 Day reboot, going to log experience

May 2nd 2022 starting 90 day reboot at day 1.

Will be updating the post as a somewhat journal of how its going through out the reboot.

Starter point. I am a guy thats 6ft tall, hits the gym pretty much everyday and would consider myself borderline “ripped”. Yet I have very little confidence with women, haven’t flirted or pursued women in 5 years. Literally feel like a virgin, even though when I was younger I was good with girls and did have quite a alot of sex. I truly believe at this point right now I am a pornsexual, as thats what my brain is attracted too.

I have no social life or friends, and have too much social anxiety to even phathom how to break out of this cycle. Yes literally not even 1 friend, as I have isolated for years and don’t know what to do now.

I’m sure nofap wont be the cure the cure to all my problems but I feel like its step in the right direction and maybe can the get the ball rolling.

Day1: Not much to say we have been here, I will update when theres more.

Day 7 (First Week)
I feel like for me personally first week is the hardest. My urges aren’t really strong for me its mostly that I feel like shit. I get withdrawals and my moods all fucked up from the lack of dopamine.

So normally I would naturally PMO and just get the quick hit of dopamine and feel balanced.

Anyways I have been angry all week and unapproachable. Gym has been great really pushing hard getting a nice pump and extremely focused when Im lifting heavy.

First week down, I feel off but going to keep pushing. Will Update next week.

Day 15
The first week was rough. I literally felt like doing nothing and even decided to skip the a whole week of work (I make my own hours) and sit on my ass and play video games all day.

Things are much better this week, my mood has stabilized I am feeling more confident and calm. Started actually wanting to go to work and thinking about how I can position myself for a better future like, better career or investments etc..

Honestly I have been a going to the gym for at least 2 years now, and I have never been more motivated in my life when it comes to gym. Its so easy to actually get my self to go, my workout are better and im pushing myself harder. Actually the best shape I have even been in my life since I started attempting NoFap 2 months ago. Im still day 15 right no I have broken a few streaks over 2 months.

I have had greater want to actually talk to people and have meaningful conversations even with strangers.

Urges aren't to bad right now, but I have had some thoughts and I am still only sexually interested in porn thoughts and not real women.

Thats it for this week, will update soon.

 

Updated for week 1

 

Updated for day 15