The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I'm good, just a little sick (from drinking milk I think). Its an allergy, dripping nose lol.

Trying to study more and be my true self by interacting with others! (Specially with my new friends, wich are girls)

How about you? All fine?

 

Day 3 as an ORC
My life is crappy at the moment but I'm determined to take it one day at a time.

 

Congratulations brother on making it happen again !

 

Going out today, I'm pretty tired... but going out is a rare occasion nowadays, gotta keep those godly eyes open tomorrow for it senses tiredness

 

Day 126

A great day at college (my version of seminary @Gallade_Templar ), and a productive afternoon at the gym and study evening. Looking forward to my day off tomorrow, going shopping with my flatmate to help him pick a suit for his wedding.

Urges were present throughout the day, the improvement I’ve seen in my body and the (few) compliments I’ve received have made me a little cocky, and suddenly I think I’m the dogs’ proverbial in the eyes of women. This is obviously not the case, but I’m struggling once again to separate my natural urges from PMO urges, my only hope is to continue abstaining and focus on self-improvement and know that this feeling shall pass.

 

day 8

i am an orc

 

Congratulations Brother!

 

Day 446

 

1 day PM-free. At least I've made it back to Orc, now to get past this.

 

I think I said this before, but I'm not sure:
My counter only indicates P, but for this challenge I am counting PM-free days, not just P-free, so right now I have 1 full day PM-free even though I have 2 days P-free.

 

Day Zero. I am a Nazgul, once a man, but now corrupted and enslaved by the power of the ring.

Hmmm. This is tough. I've been on NoFap for a year and a half; I have anti-PMO strategies for days. I struggle with knowing how to make use of them when the urges arise. My reset today happened because I failed to follow my action plan, but those words will characterize every reset I have from now until the end of time. Writing out an action plan (in my journal) was a good step, but it's only the first step. What do I do?

Guardian angels, pray for us!

 

Day 3 checkin

 

When you have an urge, just think of the regret you experience after masturbating. Think of what all things will change after masturbating to porn? Will your life improve in some way or will it degrade?
Just giving a thought to these questions will give you a buffer. That is enough to control the urge and move on. Works for me...

 

I think you should remember you reasons to be clean. Maybe you don’t have good reasons not to PM or you don’t believe in them. So you should realize why do you realy want to quit and what kind of person you really want to be. And you should start behaving that way and thinking that way. It doesn’t only concern PM, you should become a person who acts according to his believes. I suggest to read “atomic habits” and build yourself up atom by atom

 

Day 26 complete

starting to feel better again. I feel calm, I think I will be able to rest up on this weekend. Last week I felt like I have to do so much things and rest is impossible, so much responsibility is on me. When actually nothing and no one was pushing me. I am thinking of starting reading again. No rememberable urges this morning. Have a good weekend guys

 

It must be a very frustrating experience for a scientist to find out that his theory works inconsistently and what worked before became impossible to repeat and slowly trying to establish all the factors of previous experiences to see their interactions with each other as a whole picture which still can be incomplete for there could be factors unaccounted for-the ones we are not aware of.

 

Day 439 no PMO. Yesterday was fine. My life right now is a little stressful but I’m managing ok. My mother-n-law is in the hospital and might have to have surgery to get the swelling off her brain AND my dad is also in the hospital due to major digestive issues that do not seem to be getting any better.

Last night I had a dream that involved me openly having an affair with a young lady that knew I was married and didn’t care. No orgasm from the dream but I was aroused. This is the second dream like this in the last month or so. They are not raunchy dreams but more me observing and taking in and lusting after how beautiful the female form can be. Not sure what to make of the dreams. Not sure why this is happening. I’ll be fine and won’t fall to PMO but obviously would prefer I not have to deal with dreams like this.

 

Day 0 Nazgul