The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 19 - Hobbit, Bucklebury Ferry

 

day 6

 

Beginning of Day 1! Same routine as yesterday=DONE. Im makin' progress.
Wish you all the day you wanna have for yourselves

 

Day 442 no PMO. I’m still in a very stressful stage of life but I’m handling it relatively well I think. I keep telling myself that God has a plan that I don’t understand and that whatever happens is for the ultimate good.

 

Day zero

Apparently my new challenge is not PMO, but just PM and edging. And I fucking hate it. Yesterday I’ve done everything great, even before going home where I knew that I would have the house to myself. I've recorded messages for myself, telling myself what to do and not to do and why I shouldn’t watch porn. It started great and I’ve done everything right for a couple of hours but after I’ve finished like 80% of everything that I wanted to do that day I just got the worst urge and even knowing everything it felt like an other body experience.

I’m eating well, going to bed and getting up at the same time everyday and going to the gym every other day. I even meditated that day. And still I’ve spent about an hour on the toilet alone in my house looking at porn.

I don’t know what am I doing wrong, but fuck I hate feeling this weak.

 

Dawn of the 53rd day.

 

Thank you friend. Godspeed to you too.

 

day 1

no more Ringwraith phase, I am now an Orc. the streak has recommenced so there's no real urge to indulge anything. the demon isn't going to attack now. let's wait till I get back to how long the last streak was and we'll figure that out then.

I did cardio for the first time since I was out of town for the wedding last week, and my rage of having relapsed propelled me to go for an hour on the cycle. Eminem bombing in my headphones, I definitely recommend this song:



it's a fun song about girls being shallow with him and not really loving him for who he is. I think we gents have experienced that with women for sure. and the beat is classic Dr. Dre.

otherwise besides that, not much to report. for a week, I have to look like an elf whose face was burned off so we'll deal with that.
stay strong, God bless.

 

my brother. thank you for the encouragement, and I know you get what I meant about the 'missing out' feeling I got at the wedding. it sucks, but it's a matter of inner fortitude to be happy despite not having what we want. we wouldn't be fighting here if it was easy.

you're going to do great writing your sermon. I read your posts everyday, 129 days is phenomenal. not easy at all, I can imagine!
we'll keep up the good fight together. let's get it, God willing!!

 

Day 10!
Middle urges yestarday, the last sunday I had a date and we almost have sex (kisses, hugs, bla bla), so that made it difficult becouse yestarday the sexual thougs came to my mind, but mannaged them with work and videos about nofap. Keep strong my brothers!

 

Checking in, midway through my time as a gray wizard.

“A wizard is never late, Frodo Baggins. Nor is he early; he arrives precisely when he means to.” — Gandalf

 

End of day 6, bit challenging but successful.

 

Checking in day 178.

 

Day 22! Feeling a bit lethargic today and got a busy couple of weeks ahead but gotta keep all of what I've been working towards in mind and not give in to what used to be a massive trigger... Stress!

Hope everyone is doing well

 

Dude to me it seems your thinking is kinda negative (I use to think like that from time to time) - Focus on the good things - dont beat yourself up pls - Feeling weak is sth normal. Everyone does feel weak from time to time. Accept it as part of yourself. Nobody is perfect. Easy said I know. Keep it up!
Greets!

 

Day 7!
I feel minimal urges, but I accept them and know they are part of the process.
How are you fellowship?

 

Wish you much strength!! Can relate! Stress is also one of my worst enemies!