Why

*Trjgger words*


I miss the time when I was so hungry to have sex with my wife, when I didn’t think porn was a problem, when I didn’t think “am I going to get hard” “what gets me hard” “do I like this?” “Am I attracted to my wife?” “Am I gay?” “Maybe I watch cuckold and femdom porn because I’m gay” “but I always used to get hard eating women out”

It’s my day 19 without any porn, and I sometimes (rarely) feel amazing when it comes to sex and mostly anxious about it and I ask myself all these questions. I feel like I don’t know how to initiate sex, and sometimes because of how negative of a topic it’s been in my head I don’t even want to have it..

Backstory:

I’ve been watching femdom, cuckold, humiliation, forced bi porn for the past 7 years and just quit now. I stopped after I had an incident where I lost my erection with my wife while she was giving me head and I’m only 23 years old.

 

Any opinions???

 

I appreciate this community so much, if it wasn’t for NoFap Forum I wouldn’t have felt the support I need/needed to get through this. This is my second family, the one that knows my secrets and the one that is telling me to keep pushing until these disgusting secrets become a memory and then that memory becomes forgotten. I’m on day 20, and I’m grateful for everyone on this website especially the people that give me their opinions