8 years of nofap, made belief success only to fail all the time

Thank you for these kind words.

I am extremely fortunante and very happy that i met and married my wife. I am also very proud that i came and posted here, this is the first time i have been doing nofap seriously since i have gotten married. I really want to keep trying and you are right - the stuff that i did that failed were just ways that showed me that i need to try something else and to face the real problem as others have mentioned, which is my deep underling issues through discovering myself.. Which i have done in the past when i started this journey, and also because of it i've done 100+ days streaks without peeking or pmo'ing.

a year and a half ago, i was that guy that used to be strong that stopped working out and gotten fat and lost his self confidence. Around Dec 2020 i decided to change things around and my wife was very supportive, i lost 20kg in around 4 months and i managed to do pull ups, push ups and handstands and flip on the pull up bar again.. I told her then that i was struggling with pmo some what and she was very understanding but i didnt tell her how bad it was and it actually helped me a lot.


Well i did gain weight and now everyday i wanna start a diet again, but not today.. tomorrow! thats what i say everyday, how can i really change? or maybe should i just accept who i am?

 

I wholeheartedly agree with your last statement, its hard very hard and I must not give up! am having the most insane urges to peek/watch/edge/relapse in YEARS! something Is changing!

thank you - stay strong as well!