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Starting the Journey...

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by auwumpus, May 18, 2022.

  1. auwumpus

    auwumpus New Fapstronaut

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    I've always enjoyed living in my head... it's a fun place where things are awesome and I get to control everything...

    During covid I started using camsites.. I'd always been morbidly facinated with how people could get so sucked in to it that they endangered their relationships, jobs and finances a year later... The first and last thing I spent money on from my paycheck were camsite tokens. it's bad enough that I'm thinking I can spend a couple of hundred tokens and still make rent.

    I need to get better. I don't know if I can do a full reboot but I have to stop using camsites. it's ruining everything. I've deleted snap from my phone. and I've not looked at a site for 6 hrs.

    Everything in my brain is screaming you just have to type a word into that incognito browser and be satisfied.
     
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  2. Welcome! Keep fighting man.
     
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  3. Jim Mercury

    Jim Mercury Fapstronaut

    Hi there and welcome! Good that you've started!

    Maybe it's the first time, but it will definitely not be the last time. Be prepared for that! Make a plan now that you're strong and stick to that plan when you're weaker and your mind starts playing tricks on you!

    Don't try to overthink things and keep yourself busy with healthy things. Try a new hobby that you've always wanted to try, or start of study of some sort.

    Do you have a partner? Kids? Keep them in mind when designing the plan.

    And most of all: stay away from any trigger. Even the smallest thing can cause a reset or even worse a relapse!
     
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  4. auwumpus

    auwumpus New Fapstronaut

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    Thankyou for your encouragement.. I work at a computer from home and have developed some bad habits.. I haven't relapsed yet.. but it's only day two. we'll see. computer games are still terrible but less terrible than my camsite use.. so that's a distraction for now. it's still not a good solution. but it's not as bad as my camsites or google image search habits.
     
  5. Jim Mercury

    Jim Mercury Fapstronaut

    I work from home too, and that makes it difficult indeed. I installed a blocker (BlockSite). If I really wanted to, I could still visit the bad websites, but it's a first hurdle. Usually it reminds me of the bad habits, which is enough at the moment.

    Try to work at the computer and do nothing else. Gaming is also highly addictive. You need to build healthy patterns. Try to go outside, exercise and meditate. It seems like meditation is helping a lot of us here.
    Install an app like Headspace and just try it. I always thought it was very vague and up in the clouds, but it's actually grounding me (and very simple).
     
  6. auwumpus

    auwumpus New Fapstronaut

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    And back to the start :( 200 USD and a 12hr binge :( )
     
  7. Aquiantedwithsorrow

    Aquiantedwithsorrow Fapstronaut

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    You got a long journey ahead of you but so do we all. The more you learn about yourself and study how to conquer this beast the more chance you'll have of freedom.

    Denying ourselves of fleeting pleasure is a battle we are all faced with. Your not in this alone and what your experiencing now, we have all been there.

    The best thing now is for you to be encouraged and the fact that your confessing your faults and holding yourself accountability is a step in the right direction.

    Just don't get caught in the trap thinking that what you started you won't achieve. It's definitely a process and a journey and your making a wise move by being a part of a community that can help and support you, not beat you while your down.

    You need love and support from brothers who know the overwhelming emotions and thoughts your facing and can relate with how destructive the cycle of PMO truly is. Keep staying the course you will become more enlightened as your journey unfolds.
     

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