The Lord of the Rings Challenge

@Gallade_Templar about the calendar to track days, I find it a useful method to measure progress. They say that what is measured increases. I use a spreadsheet calendar and mark each day without pmo as green. The fail days get marked red. At the bottom of each month there is spot for total wins, total fails, and a percentage success for the month.
It is great to see a streak of green for a week, watch it grow into a month. A couple months or more and I feel fantastic and much less likely to relapse. You can see your progress over the year, and gain insight into your patterns. I think I got the idea from a brother in nofap reddit who modified a calendar from calendarpedia.com. It is a free spreadsheet.

 

Day 145

Celebrating the end of the academic year at college; really great to have a big dinner, some bubbles, and a few games of croquet!

Went to the gym with my friend and he asked me if I had my eye on any girls, I replied that I didn’t, but it seems people are mentioning my singleness more and more and encouraging me out of it. I don’t mind too much, at least they care, but it does make my urges more noticeable as well!

 

Day 465

 

Day 458 no PMO. Still going through some stress but I’ll manage.

 

Day 2 on hard mode.
Urges came but were defeated by a cold shower and a session of workout.

 

Dawn of the 69th day.

 

Afternoon of the first day.

I got up and had a great breakfast and immediately went to the open space to get out of the house. I don’t love this at all, but I don’t feel safe in my own home alone so for the next week I simply plan on staying outside as much as I can.

And for today and the next week. I’ve come up with a plan with the help of @Slider8. Everyday for the next week I’ll try to devote that day to a specific goal or theme. Trying to do everything at once always makes me feel overwhelmed until I break. So the next 7 days are going to be split up into different goals.

Today my goal was to be clear minded. The day after PMO is always a day of brain fog and general weakness and so today I was just trying to focus on my little place in the world. I’ve meditated for the first time in months, wrote in my journal and in general just tried to stay connected to the way I feel and think.

Tomorrow would be the day for discipline. I want to show myself that I can do stuff even when they are hard without flinching. So my goal for the day would be to exercise, have a cold shower, meditate and try to avoid sugar completely.

After that the days would be: creativity, socializing, a quiet day, self care day and finally on June first, I would have my first day at my new job and that night I would try and focus on looking back and seeing the progress I’ve made.

@Gallade_Templar thanks brother, and about the calendar. I’ve been doing it for a year and a half now and it is one of the best things I’ve ever done for my nofap experience. The calendar is kind of the opposite of the time counter that we all have. For a time I would relapse every three or four days. So my counter always showed me that I’m an orc and nothing more than that. And it kind of made me depressed, in a similar manner, when you’re a Nazgul there is a common lie that we tell ourselves, that if I’m already on day zero, I’m not losing that much by PMOing “just one more time”. The calendar puts stuff in perspective. It showed me that even as an orc my life got a million times better, that I’ve only PMO 10 days out of 30 and that is a huge improvement.

 

Check in day 241

 

Day 0 again
Sorry I didn't write for a few days, I was in a trip aI didn't have the space to be alone to write here. Relapsed yestarday at night, after I came of the trip. I know that I'm going to relapse, I was jus horney. I have to remember why I'm doing this. Keep strong my brothers!

 

Day 1 as an ORC, complete.

 

End of Day 3...

Today I was right before relapsing quite a view times. But PMO wont get me now. NO. Not now.

Battles won vs PMO: 5

thx again @Paul S. for mentioning this method of focusing on the smallest steps ... It helps^^

Greets out!

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO)



This post is starting to get redundant, but bear with me. I swear no man can kill me.

 

Day 146

A busy day of lectures and meetings; feels odd to have come to the end of my first year of training, but excited to see what happens in the time to come.

No urges today, spent good time amongst friends.

 

Day 466

 

Day 38

 

Ok I will contact moderator

 

Day 3
Bad sleep last night due to binge watching movies and was not able to understand anything taught in the lecture but I will study hard

 

Dawn of the 70th day.

I am now a Warrior.