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I want to kill myself

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by Gjey, Apr 15, 2021.

  1. ImFuture

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    I used to feel like that, 2 months feeling depressed. And it's okay to feel like that, sadness is a powerful emotion we need to embrace, it makes us grow.
    Here I am, 1 year later, my life has changed thanks to my mood, now whenever I go out I eat the fucking world, I don't care about people, sometimes they make fun of me and you know what? I do laugh as well, because I don't care!!! And when they see I don't care they laughing at me, they stop laughing and I bet they start thinking 'wow, he didn't care we made fun of him, why would he do that?' or shits like 'he so secure about himself, I would love to be like that'.
    After going out with this mood, I changed my eating habits, started going to gym, got a job, now Im getting some money I can buy me stuff I love, and trust me, I got me some more with money.
    Today, I re-started the gym, and went with this t-shirts that are for muscular guys, and Im not even muscular haha, people were looking at me like 'yoo why the fuck you wearing that' and I was looking at them like get the fuck off I do what I want, Im not doing any harm to you. Some guys even started looking at the weights I was lifting. I bet in 1 month they will start asking what Im eating, how am I training...

    Love yourself man, at the end of the day you only got you. When you start loving yourself, doing things you love, taking care, people start showing up, they will envy or maybe be jealous or maybe they will be just friendly and want to be part of your success. Once you start being succesful they start wanting to be part of your way.
     
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  2. please don't hurt yourself. i recently turned 30, i am f btw. you are not the only one to feel lost in life even if you might feel the only one. before i discovered this forum i thought i was the only s. addict almost, that only few people were like me but some many people struggle with s. and p. addiction like i did. now i am 3 years and a half sober and my sobriety gives me hope even in the mist of sadness and struggles

    I get the things about friendships come and go and for guys I haven't been with anyone for a couple of years. sometimes I had triggers and felt I sort of "liked" or attracted to few guys over this period. also i got rejected by 2 guys at work last year, one of them bragged about it for several months after. now i don't care anymore about that. i realized i pretended to not see so many red flags and dated guys that treated me very bad and made feel without worth.

    for a while now i decided i won't date any guy that i feel i kinda like but with even one red flag. i feel you can truly tell if someone likes or loves you back really but so many people settle for crumbs and that is bad like i did myself for too long

    i recoomend you to do something you feel you are good at, that you are naturally drawn to, hobbies that lift your mood. everyone has that. for me it is writing and reading for example. i used to think i was not talented. but then my family made me notice i spoke down to myself, saying i wasn't special or good enough. you gotta be your number 1 fan, live your special personality. you were born to be happy. you can send me a private message too :)
     
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  3. Gjey

    Gjey Fapstronaut

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    Hello, here I am again..
    I thought I would never come back to this topic. However, trying so bad to move on in my life has brought me nothing.
    Paying attention to your diet, playing sports, music have not changed anything in the end. I'm still an ugly piece of shit.. Plus , I had confidence for a while. No women attentions, not even little progresses on my goals (though I worked my ass off). My issues can't be solved I have an ugly face and am an idiot..

    I don't know what to do now.. I want to die. I never thought I would say it again but what's the point. I don't see any other solutions, I'm worthless..
     
    Last edited: May 24, 2022
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  4. Abel100%

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    @Gjey ...Oye mira tienes 24 años ... Si el problemas son las chicas. Bueno yo permanecí virgen hasta casi los 28 años. ... Además acá hay gente q pasa de los 30 años sin haber tendiendo una relación estable con alguien ....aún hay esperanza.... tuviste una racha de más de 30 días...eso muchos No lo han logrado en todos su vida ... Yo lucho con sentimientos de soledad y pero fracaso por perder a mi familia, pero me digo aún estoy debajo de los 40 años , las cosas pueden mejorar ... Si duele mucho , mañana las cosas pueden mejorar ....
     
  5. So you are frustrated. Everyone is going to be frustrated who tries to accomplish anything meaningful.

    Don't let those feelings interfere with your process.

    I want you to do a 90 day hard mode reboot. It's going to change the way you think, in a good way.
     
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  6. DeeJ4y

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    what is your idea of woman attraction? women just come to you because they want you? we all have to work and it still wont quarantee results. it seems that you base your self value on woman acceptance and if you dont get a woman you want to die. you need to find a way to love yourself first. the fact thatit took you this long to come back meant that you were somewhat happy with yourself. you dont work on yourself to get women. you work in yourself to feel good about yourself. to love yourself. just so thatwhen you get rejected you can find love for yourself and accpetance just so you can carry on. but i know it gets hard sometimes. would you like to share what caused this feeling that you are feeling now?
     
  7. don't say these things, if you focus on having positive thoughts expecting positive experiences you will get them, i promise you that. it works with me every time. block out when you feel a negative thought coming into your head. i, as you, struggle with low confidence but i am working on it, think every day you can do things better and you will improve more and more

    if you want to talk you can send me a message. i mean it. you are not alone
     
  8. Gjey

    Gjey Fapstronaut

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    My studies are finished and I know that I will not work in a field that I love.

    I was planning to become a sports coach but I am incapable. I'm now 25, still don't have a car, still no real independence. I just wanna disappear from this shitty world..
    I thank you for your messages.. yet I am less than nothing.
    It's too late for me, I've never loved my life when I think about it..

    I tried and tried harder.. I am exhausted from this dirty life.
    I must find the courage to end my life..
    The only things that has been real in my life is pain.. I want it to end once and for all.

    Goodbye, I thank you again for your kind messages
    I wish you the best ;)
     
    Last edited: Jun 24, 2022
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  9. Abel100%

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    Amigo aún tines 26 años, debes de mejorar esos pensamientos, oye todos tenemos malos pensamientos mira, ano tienes que demostrar nada a Nadie ,uva gente pasa de los 30 años sin pareja ni ningún chance en el amor, creo debes de ser más paciente ...
    Estás en un país con oportunidades, y sigues con vida y salud, en Alguna parte de Ucrania o África están mucho peor que nosotros...piénsalo
     
  10. my mentor said if you get nofap right, you will get everything else right. Whats the longest you have gone? Extended Nofap can improve your appearance too, like eyes brighter and skin more glowing, and just overall more alive looking

    You need energy to be able to do things like make enough money to have own car, fight your way through this world, accomplish your dreams. Without the fuel of your sexual energy you will remain perpetually stuck. You can still become a sports coach, but a sports coach needs charisma, energy, powerful voice, ability to interact well with kids (all things which in my personal experience have a one to one correlation with nofap).

    When you hit rock bottom, You either give up, or go balls to the wall to make a drastic change. The payoff may take months, years realistically, but it will be worth it.
     
  11. Khufu

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    how long you been practicing nofap, your mind just playing tricks on you, your starving it from an addiction so its pushing back, just ignore it, stay NoFap strong brother, its the key core discipline you need
     
  12. DeeJ4y

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    why cant you be a sport coach?
     
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  13. I suggest not doing this.

    Lots of people can't get what they want out of life.

    It's the way that life is.

    But what you can do is get a job on a sports team and work your way up. Or you could become successful in another business and buy a team, or part of one. Don't give up: there are more ways than those I mentioned.

    One strange thing to think about is that when some people get what they want, they cling to it. Everybody else thinks they are annoying and crazy, and they don't feel that passion.

    When you work a job that is not your "dream", you don't cling to it, obsess on it and idolize yourself inside of it. You see your life in a holistic way. You have the job, the social life, the fitness, the faith/spiritual, the hobbies and other things. You can find a healthy balance that way. You won't tend to work 14 hours a day on something that could ultimately fail.

    So you feel like a failure, but you might be finding a better template.
     
  14. Gjey

    Gjey Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your repplies, It's helping me a lot.
    I feel a lot better today and I think that it was my addiction to Porn which takes too much space.
    I relapsed 2 days ago and I felt like real shit.

    However, I know that I prefer to live my days as when I am cheerful and energized. I know, deeply, that I am a capable person and I love things about myself but I must fight my worst enemy.. my thoughts. Sometimes, it hits me with all its strenght, it hurts a lot.

    Don't worry, I am going to chase my dreams and I will develop a mental as tough as my physical strenght.
    I really thank you for your messages and I wish you the very best
     
  15. You'll make it.

    About thoughts, your best defense is a good offense. Keep busy.
     
  16. Selix

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    However, tying so bad to move on in my life has brought me nothing worth yet.

    Paying attention to your diet, playing sports, music have not changed anything in the end because nothing easy is worth having.

    I'm still an adorable piece of shit whom can improve.

    I dont need shitty women attentions, I worked hard on my goals but I am unabe to see any progression yet ( I have still to work hard, I still believe in hard work but is all pointless in the end if I dont believe in my self)

    I dont know how to solve my issues yet but I will find a solution, regarding my face I hope that with more confidence I see myself as an attractive guy with a gorgeous face

    I dont know what to do right now but I will find out... I want to live forever. I never thought I would say it but thats the point to grind and see whats the point of it all. I WILL SEE MY SOLUTION AND PURPOSE FULLFILLED... I WILL BECOME LEGENDARY

    I dont know how to say it and not becoming banned for this:

    GET THE HELL OUT OF YOUR VICTIM MENTALITY. YOU ARE A FUCKING VICTOR AND WILL BE VICTORIUS IN THE END.
    you started this thread in 2021 and you still reply in 2022

    no pain no gain. use that emotional, physical pain and make it work for you
    the best works of art where created when the artists were in heavy pain

    the pain is what makes you feel alive and to be frank with you I am addicted to the pain because it makes ME feel alive.

    YOU HAVE TO FIND YOUR SOLUTION FOR YOURSELF AS I HAVE FOUND IT FOR MYSELF
    if you are interested you can read my posts and my struggles, I hope they werent deleted.

    the universe will help a stubborn heart
     
  17. keep fighting, keep having positive thoughts every day is a new day, quitting p. is fundamental, you will feel a new man the more you stay away from p.

    I use R tribe app now called Four Streams and it is a free app it helped me greatly to get sober i would check in at the end of every day saying how i felt what productive activities I did, also my faith in God and my family
     

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