Stuck at Day 7

Hi, My name is Bishoy, I'm new to NoFappers , and I've been trying to stop masturbation for a long while, I've been doing it since I was 12 or something I'm now 20 (after a couple of days) 8 whole years of masturbating, and porn, recently I've been struggling greatly with it, it makes me lazy, and desperate, with no interest in real girls, by the way I live in Egypt a very conservative society, and we almost don't have the term of premarital sex, also I don't want to lose my virginity with anybody but with the girl of my dreams, I'd like if I stopped porn and masturbation and porn for good, but it's no easy task, to stop it I made members of my family put a password to the admin account on the computer (I didn't tell them though that I have an addiction) and prevented the standard account from accessing the computer after 12 a.m (The time I have most problems through when everybody is sleeping) and I installed K9 Blue Coat protection software with a long password that I forgot, and then I could stop for 6 days (longest period for years every time it would be just 3/4 days) and then I asked my family members for the password and they gave it to me easily as they don't understand what it is for. That day I masturbated 4 times!

I put the password again and did all the process again and I even traveled for a week with my family to a city with a beach and so, I stopped for the 7 days and then after I came home(I just arrived 7 hours ago) I took the password from them and did it 3 times!

It seems that I can't break the 7 days barrier and I hate it when I lose all the progress I did, I just feel depressed and so on and after the 7 days I turn back to masturbation, it makes me happy just for a short period of time, I want to stop it for good, your opinions and techniques please, I really would like to get a girlfriend and get married, I can't seek professional help because I would have to tell my family, so internet is my only way to stop it...

 

Hi, first of all thanks for the first reply wastingmydays,I'm proud because it's the longest streak(every time it's just 3/4 days) but you know I heard about reddit's NoFap and I want this, they are looking forward for stopping for 90 days, about the question How long have I been trying to not masturbate? not more than a year or two, I didn't feel the problem until recently, I've been doing it for pleasure in the early days, then I was doing it because it became a habit, but I didn't feel the problem until I had health problems from it, my knees ache like a really old guy, my sight became weaker and my nerves became weaker too, I have now this thing that make my hands not stable always have this little shake, nothing dangerous but that's it, I now hate masturbation more not just because of the health problems but because after I do it I feel powerless like I have no will power.

And about other bad habits well.. lots... I'm addicted to computers/internet, I love TV ALOT, and if you consider this as a bad habit, I'm not a good social person, I can't deal well with people and so. Thanks again for your reply, it made my day.

 

yea sorry I didn't get you well, but I don't have a problem at that, I told them not to give me the password this time and I didn't have to explain why, the problem is in exceeding day 7, I hate the feeling afterwards that I lost all the progress, you know.

 

Hey, Water2funk first of all congrats for the 35 days, great job, and good luck in the next streak, about the first section of your reply, I really didn't try to masturbate without porn but 1 or 2 times in my life if it's not porn then it's just sexually suggestive videos, the problem is in youtube now, I mean I blocked the porn and so but when I have a moment of weakness I access youtube for sexually suggestive videos,I enabled it's filter but still it has some of these videos, and I can't totally block youtube because I need it for other things, so I would be greatly thankful if you told me a thing to do about youtube, I tried to masturbate once or twice in my life without porn, but if there's no porn I don't usually masturbate.

About the edging part: When I edge I know in the back of my head that I am going to complete the job, so through my streaks I don't edge at all.

It's not really the urges that end my streaks but it's the depression about the end of the 6th or 7th day I feel really depressed and hopeless and then I do it, I guess it's the hormones and so that make me feel like this.

And about the girl of my dreams, I understand what you said "Just make sure you don't fall for the first girl who likes you." but I guess this is one of the reasons I masturbate, is that I was never being attracted to, I mean I was attracted to 3 or 4 girls before none of them was attracted to me, I told one of them about my feeling and she said she admires me as a friend, I've never tried the feeling of being romantically loved, so I guess that's a part of why do I feel hopeless and so.

Thanks at all, and good luck again in your streak. Today is the first day in my next streak by the way.

 

Thanks Water2funk, you know, we have the same saying, you can look but don't touch about the school thing my school will not make me watch sexy videos for homework, I mean it would be the best school ever, but I'm in Architectural engineering so, I guess not , and about the girls that didn't like me back, I guess a little more confidence and self esteem would've done a lot, but that's life. to be honest they were attractive from some aspects but none of them were the girl I would like to spend my life with, anyways that's actually what I'm waiting for, to be with this girl...

 

Hey there, guys wastingmydays and water2funk and everybody who took time to look at this thread, it's been a month I last logged in here, I've been struggling and the last streak I've been to was for about 4 days during this month, now I'm on another streak today is day 5 and I can't tell you how energetic I am but here's the problem. I don't feel motivated to do it anymore, especially that I feel now that girls don't enjoy sex most of the time and they pretend they do, I never had sex but I think like this and I also most of the time don't feel aroused by the sight of girls, I don't know what to do about this, the idea that my wife wouldn't enjoy it and pretend she did (or tell me the truth which would be more shocking) or that I wouldn't be able to achieve an erection or wouldn't be able to make her reach orgasm or so, it's long time before I can get married (about 4 years or something)but this really makes me anxious, any opinions, or motivations or so, thanks a lot for supporting me.