The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I'm still here and still an Orc.

Let's do this!

 

@canada123 You can do this, my friend!

 

Crap, I already relapsed this morning. I M to a P sub. I forgot, can you believe that? I am super-tired, I couldn't sleep right. Anyway yeah, I'm actually at Nazgul, with 8 hours currently.

 

I'm going through tough hours, brothers. Every minute is a victory.

 

8 days Urak Hai

I slipped up and watched some intentionally. If I reset I am going to binge hard. Just going to focus on moving forward. If I watch anything else, or do more, it will be a reset for me.

Been a bit depressed because of my situation. Roomate smoking weed last night and I can't due to job. Being around it made me weak and slip up, like I can't think straight or control myself and not fall into temptation.

Going to be extra vigilant with any further temptation. I will focus on being present. Mindfulness of the pain and reason for fapping as well as reasons for quitting. I forgive myself, but I will stop making excuses for slipping too.

 

Day 157

Today was a lot easier, quite a straightforward day and it was nice to have a bit of downtime after a busy week. Tomorrow I need to go to the gym and get started on my essays - then I can enjoy my holiday!

 

Dusk of the 80th day.

 

Day 0

 

Day 13 check in. Had a tough argument with my adult son followed by a tougher one with my spouse this morning, and have been down about it all day while trying to work. Interesting how being down wihle under stress brings the desire to give up on the streak and self-soothe with PMO. I haven't succumbed. But it is good to take note of any external and internal influences and how they affect my desire to fap.

 

Day 477

 

Day 1 complete!

Not too bad, not too bad. Tomorrow I start my summer job working at a church about 45 minutes from my parents. I get to stay there for two months, living with the priests and basically shadowing them. I'm a bit nervous for how I'll get along with them, but I'm mostly just excited to start getting some experience.

St. John Vianney, pray for us!

 

Day 57 complete

doing okay. I noticed that it’s hard for me not to look at other women when the weather is getting warm and they start showing some skin

 

2 days
I need to reboot because I'm numbing myself with porn and therefore cannot get to know myself truely. Whatever that means...

 

I just finished Day 1. I'm not going to give up , I did 5 days it's time to do better this time until I win this fight by casting into the fire that Ring.

 

Back again from a holiday to Disneyland! Have been busy like crazy so no urges whatsoever.

Day 8 - Uruk-Hai, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

186

 

Day 40

 

Good morning fellow brothers.
I ended up seeing some explicit content, but it was just some couple pictures through some couple minutes. I know it's P and, therefore, wrong, but this certainly didn't make feel like I relapsed. Even though it's a sin anyway and I do not find it okay to have done it, I can't say that I'm not kinda glad, since I was once used to only hardcore P.
I'm obviously not proud for seeing those pictures, but I also don't feel like I've relapsed. I want to hear what you guys have to say about it. Should I reset the counter? Personally, I think I shouldn't

 

Day 12 check in

One great thing about nofap is vivid dreams and some lucid dreams, but so far I don't remember having a morning erection or wet dreaming. I'm really on an empty tank

 

Congratulations mate for overcoming temptation. You don't need to reset the counter, but it's good to be careful, in one of these you can end up going to the end and lose all the accumulated benefits. Try to know your triggers to avoid them in the future. You already recognized one of them.