The Lord of the Rings Challenge

I relapsed. There is no secret, never take the first step, even when you're under trigger. You have to be stronger than your urges. I will try harder in this new streak. Never lose sight of your motivation.

 

Checking in. I had a good day with minimal urges or eye strays and made wise choices about timing (how much I left myself for things like showering and getting ready, when I executed my routines, and what I did with my time). Tomorrow I become a hobbit!

 

Day 41 .Today is a busy day

 

Day 2 complete!

Custody of the eyes is going to be the key to winning a lot of battles this summer. In a church setting I'll be working with a lot of women, which isn't something I'm very used to, but I can use this as an opportunity to grow. If I avoid all external sources of lustful thoughts (PMO) and silence all the internal sources, I'll be doing quite well.

St. Lucy, pray for us!

 

I will pray for you

 

Day 58 complete

I was low on urges. Not a lot to say

 

3 days
I feel like I'm on a mission again, hope rises. I can get easier out of bed. Downside is I believe again that: "I need to do something to get somewgere". I wanted to get rid of this mindset. I guess the solution could be to abstain from P to benefit others.

 

Day 9 - Uruk-Hai, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

Hello,

Does anybody have the experience in attending NoFAP meetings groups online?

 

Beginning of Day 1.
Did all my routines:

• 2min Ice-Cold-Shower
• 5min Meditation
• 1min Hand-Stand
• 3min Self-Love
• 3min Faith-and-Belief
• 2min Gratitude

After that I feel so much better than yesterday
these routines are essential - and they are weapons against PMO

left to do in the evening:

• journaling with Emotional Self-talk (15min)
• And I need some relaxation -points !

Greets Out!

 

Day 1 check in

 

Dawn of the 82nd day.

 

Bro you can do it . I think this graph will help you.
1) If your mind says to relapse , you can see the graph.
that's about intensity of urges from day 0 to day 90




2) you can watch ZYZZ inspirational videos . I also watch these inspirational videos on youtube.

 

There are times when I feel I could slip at any minute. I need to keep doing the work every day. I just don’t think I’m ever going to be 100% healed but that’s ok.

 

I notice that a fall begins with a few slips... looking at Instagram profiles of cute girls or boys online or whatever flavor of poison usually works for you... "harmless stuff" to start. Your mind will justify it, "it wasn't a full slip, i'm still good". Then you are at it the next day... it comes gradually and It follows your usual patterns.
Then comes the fall. And you reset. Then the relapse and the relapse loop. Until you come to your senses again or fall into that shit mood.
At least that's how it works for me.

Day 14 as an Uruk-Hai, complete!

Today I am a Hobbit! @RiseToGreatness
The journey begins. The urges continue and I keep fighting!

 

Day 471 no PMO. Had an amazing night with my family last night. Happy to be so blessed.

 

Day 0

MOd twice today. Been very depressed and lonely. Longing for companionship. I want to find somebody to be with, to spend my time with. I feel a bit more hopeful on that front. But I want to find a way forward through this depression for now. I am making plans to go on holiday soon. It will do me a lot of good.

I don't like MOing. It makes me feel like I can't trust anyone because I know I am hiding things myself. I miss when I was younger and I found it so easy and natural to trust and relate with others. Of course, the difficult thing is that then your trust gets broken and you get heartbroken. But I'd still rather live trusting people and risking having it broken than always doubting yourself and others. It's no way to live and it's tearing me apart.

Holiday would do me good, and some counselling.

Keep doing what y'all are doing.

 

Day 3
Low urges yestarday, worked out today.

Keep strong my brothers!

 

I became a grey wizard earlier, but then relapsed and have been struggling since then. But now is the time to get back on track and enjoy the honor and blessing of being among the fellowship again. Good luck to all others on this forum. Never give up
Check in day 0.

 

Check in day 254