The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 32.
I woke up feeling really horny today. Maybe I'm starting to reach some tough times, but I'm not sure. Since this week I've been feeling really tempted by the mornings. But I know that getting really busy lately is good to turn me around mindless attitudes.
I'm thinking about resetting my counter, not because I've relapsed, but because I know that when I reach over 30 days things start to develop slower and this makes me lose myself, so counting from 01 again might help with that. It surely won't affect the reboot itself, since I'll be actually +32 days clean then what my counter says.

 

Day 0 - Nazgul

 

18 days
Low - middle urges yestarday, I had some problems with my focus. When I try to focus in some difficult task (usually job tasks) the urges usually appears, but if I continue focusing, the urges eventually disappears. It's just to know that I will have that problem some time (maybe more than I spect) but surelly I will be more strong to manage it.

Worked out and took a cold shower.

Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 07...( 23 june 2022).

 

Checking in day 222-palindrome . Two cold showers and a lot of sunbathing today!

 

Palindrome

 

16 days - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around.

Had a usual day today, nothing special
I'm moving to another city actually for one month

 

Day 1, square 1.

 

Day 322

Rise like two days ago I was remembering when you were falling pretty often. I remember how sad you were, telling us you should be a good example, not someone who keeps falling...
I'm happy for you now, you really got out of that hole, and since then, I rarely find a sad or dark post coming from you. You keep getting stronger but also your life is improving, you're growing man believe it. And you know it as well as I do: you do not want to go back there. You want to stay strong, keep growing and keep beating up our enemy. You're in God's team now, don't you fall on us. I know you can beat this one and every single battle ahead. Praying for you.

 

Day 173/174

I apologise for missing my check-in yesterday, I had quite a late night and then an early morning to follow! Had a great day today at a conference in Bristol, then came home to watch all of Obi Wan Kenobi with my friends; it’s just perfect.

Urges have not been a problem the past couple days, feeling strong and ready for the weekend!

 

Check in day 269

 

Day 57
only 3 days left for day 60
Have a nice Day!

 

Day 2 complete!

Not as easy as I thought it would be. I experienced frequent...not urges, exactly, but more like intrusive thoughts. I did well keeping up a mental counter-talk to these temptations, though--reminding myself how awful it is to fall and that falling is not inevitable. I want to immerse my mind and soul more and more in that of the Lord until I am never away from Him.

St. Raphael the Archangel, pray for us!

 

Day 10 as an Orc complete!
Have you ever been afraid to do something you know is good for you, but are not exactly sure what is scaring you? It's ridiculous really.

Success is walking from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm,” - Winston Churchill.
(so much easier said than done I know. But that doesn't make it any less true.)

 

0 days >> Nazgûl (You were once a man, a King, now fallen to the power of PMO)



After seven days I fell. I'm trying to tell myself that my progress isn't completely destroyed if I keep it to just once. Still no porn which is good.

 

Day 15 complete

I had a dream that almost turned into a wet one. And now I am feeling an urge to look for sexy images online - the activity that made me reset my counter last time. But it’s much easier not to do it when I know for sure that it’s not allowed here. Oh and I am a hobbit once again.

 

Day 9 check in.

Uruk Hai! Feels good, and i defenitely have a dasire ro break free from the power of the pmo ring. But still looking much forward to starting the journey as a hobbit, and being on my way to cast the pmo ring into the fires.

 

Day 494

 

Day 487 no PMO. Yesterday I was watching a show about digital addiction and it was featuring a woman that was showing off her body on social media for attention. I really wanted to see if the addiction specialist on the show would be able to set her on the recovery path but the scenes got too provocative so I deleted the show, deleted any future recordings of the show and turned off the TV. The show is on a regular Chanel and there would be no actual nudity but I just didn’t like where it was leading my brain so I thought it was best to just turn away from it completely. Tiny steps down the wrong path eventually lead to a bad place. Don’t just ask yourself “is this porn”. Ask yourself “where does this path lead?” Stay strong out there everyone!