The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in day 230.

 

210

 

26 days!
Low urges yestarday but some brain fog again, I think that is for 2 main reasons (I'm almost sure that is not nofap related)

• I'm sick (maybe I have covid)
• I'm not sleeping well. Maybe 4 hours each day since this monday.

I have to solve my sleeping problems, I'm really stressed, I have to find a way to manage it. I didn't worked out but I took a cold shower.

I want to share you my progress of this year:


Keep strong my brothers

 

Day 0...(2 July 2022)..

 

Day 0 Nazgul

Starting over again.

 

Dang 323 days.

Hey brother, I also often relapse when I get resentful that I’m not in a relationship yet. It’s a viscous cycle. Blaming others for my dissatisfaction with my life, giving up my power over my own life.

Usually when I’m happier and more satisfied in myself with my life, when I like the person I am now and the way my life is, then I don’t feel the need to be resentful. Maybe you can do some things that you enjoy, or hang out with somebody you like being around, and that way you feel a lot better about your life, and things get a lot simpler.

 

This was your post before you reached 500 days. So it's really possible.

 

Wow

 

Day 1

Had a series of really bad relapses over the past three days. In a lot of emotional pain at the moment and not at all happy with the way my life is going. I also feel very fed up in my faith and hurt by God. Religion has often done me more harm than good, beating me into line rather than giving me the encouragement I need.
I feel a lot of pain in my heart and I quickly get consumed by worries and fears if I spend too much time in my own head.

I’m dealing with a lot of intrusive thoughts and social anxiety at the moment. I think PMO has a lot to do with that.

I called a friend today and we agreed to be accountability partners to each other for 21 days. He will hold me accountable to abstaining from PMO and doing one thing to step outside my comfort zone every week. I will check that he wakes up at 10am every day and that he takes steps towards finding a partner.

Right now I am gripped by pain and anxiety. But I have a few things planned coming up soon that I believe will do me good.

Going to a church event tomorrow which I think will be good for me. And next week I’m starting volunteering once a week on Tuesdays at a local hospital as a befriender. I did it last year and it was a life-changing experience. I am looking forward to going back. It is a wonderful thing to get outside of my own small world and enter into the world of another person. I am looking forward to it.

 

23 days – Gildor Inglorion, an Elf, crosses your path causing a Nazgûl that was chasing you to flee. You stay the night with his company of Elves. He gives you an Hithlain rope, a magical rope, light and flexible, yet extremely strong.

Quest Item – Hithlain rope

Already 23 days have passed, my life is going fast. Spent the whole day learning and working. In the evening went to the beach.
Great day overall.

I'm also noticing that I'm not prioritizing the reboot, but it also usually the mistake.

 

Thanks @MS PBH for being such an inspiration to us all. We all made that first comment someplace, and knowing that breaking free is indeed possible is so great. Im wishing you the best of luck in your life.

 

Day 17!

Had a bit of urges, but i’ve watched a couple of documentaries the last couple of day, and im becoming more and more disgusted with pmo and what it does to us and society. I still get turned on by the thought of porn, but when thinking about relapsing and how the people involved are treated i get sad and disgusted.

Yes you are right, we have to get strong first and then get back to normal. We shouldn’t be playing with the fire, but i am aware of the triggers, and i still do turn my body away when triggers are in my sight.
Thank you for caring and reading friend. It is very encourageing to have people around to care for and be cared for by.

 

End of Day 4!
TBH I havent done much routines and the day was very lazy (besides work out, making music, and cleaning up the kitchen, cooking ).
Ive hurt my no series /games before 18 pm timer (kinda ashamed but Ill try that again tomorrow)

Checking out a bit late again but better late than never like always...I can reach the time step by step
Have a good sleep evryone!!
See ya

 

Day 182

Had a great night's sleep in my new home, got plenty of chores done in the morning and got back to the gym as well; I’m dedicated to making sure I treat my bedroom as my place of rest, and after a little wake-up-call last night I’m back to exercising daily in full force.

Overcoming PMO is one of the many healthy habits I have to put in place for my mental health; daily exercise, drinking plenty of water, getting 8 hours of sleep per night, and lower alcohol consumption are just some of the things I’m working on to become a better version of myself.

I found this insanely inspiring @MS PBH - I started NoFap in November 2020 and thought of myself as nothing but a failure each time I relapsed. You have shown us that it is possible, and that we all go through the same battles.

 

Day 7 is completed. Last day of the Orc.

 

Day 0

 

Day 4 complete!

Urges were still quiet today. My early streaks usually follow a predictable pattern, so I expect that tomorrow they will return. Fortunately, I already have a plan for how I will fill my day and keep myself occupied, so as long as I stick to that plan, I should be alright.

@zusya I'm sorry to hear about your experiences with religion, but I appreciate your vulnerability and honesty. It's a sad truth that many people do use it as an excuse for beating others into line, but it seems to me that it's meant to help us become literally the best version of ourselves, the people God meant us to be. I'd be interested in hearing which religion you belong to and what that's been like for you. PMs are welcome if you don't want to discuss it in public. Carry on, brother!

St. Junipero Serra, pray for us!

 

Bad start to a new month.
I fell to PMO yesterday: It started as M which then led to P then O. I was in a very bad frame of mind yesterday thanks to a rather bad conversation with an ex the day before.
It makes me sad to reset at my farthest in this journey but that's what has to be done.

"I am not diminished by my imperfections! I am worth the extra effort"

 

13 days