The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 3 - Orc, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr

 

Guys Im back sry for no reply the last days... I went rly ill after my last relapse... Had the worst headaches and fever that one could imagine. With medicine its easier to endure ..I hope and pray that its over soon. Dunno which day im on now. But it doesnt matter because i dont have the strenght to relapse anyways. For now its just breathe.

May God Bless you

 

haha..

 

Day 15! This time I won't fail.

 

Day 347

@Anas778 disappeared. Are you alright brother?

 

Day 0 - Nazgûl

I haven’t posted since December. I got a bit overwhelmed, I was trying to do too many things at once, trying to get rid of all my bad habits while starting several new hobbies. I’ve had to learn to manage my energy better and be patient with myself when I can only move at a certain speed. Right now I just want to get a streak going because it’s been so long. God has been so good to me in the past year, and I want to do my part to let go of this sin. I’m weak against porn, it takes all my power from me. I put my faith in God to lift its weight from my shoulders.

Started playing the video game Hades this weekend. It’s very, very good. Went on a work trip last week that felt more like a mini-vacation, got to eat Korean beef nachos and pho. Saw a rainbow this morning driving to work, and it reminded me that God is merciful. Hope you all have a peaceful day.

 

It is quite something, that our urges will even arise to attempt to lure us into forgetting the discomfort of a stomach ache. It shows how deeply we have enthralled that as our source of relief. I'm glad you're feeling better, my brother!

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

6 Days Free of PMO.

Day by day the vertigo/dizziness is very slowly starting to wear off. I dread practicing the physio for my ear as I am purposely inducing dizziness, but it does seem to be working.

Slightly stronger urges this morning, more so to edge and fantasize versus watching porn. I will not give in to it though.

I'm going to workout today, I'm hopeful that it will be a good one.

Habits that I've been keeping to so far is:

- Wim Hof Breathing as I wake up.
- Morning stretch (about 10 mins) to wake the body.
- A very limited amount of cardio with the stairs in my house to get the blood flowing for the day.
- 10 mins of exposure outside right after breakfast, natural day light is important. Regardless of the weather.
- Meditation
- Daily Journaling. A habit that I dropped at the end of March until I returned here. A habit that was consistent for 502 days.



Stay strong!

 

Daily checkin

 

day 10

 

229

 

43 days
Yestarday I had low urges almost all the day, just high urges maybe in 1 hour of the day but managed focusing reading something related to my job.

Today I worked out and took a cold shower.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 2!
I'm trying to keep myself busy, but also trying not to exhaust myself, cuz this will make me fall for self pity.

I have and important test this week, so it will be a great distractor

 

Day 3 as a Hobbit complete!
"I am not diminished by my imperfections! I am worth the extra effort"

 

Checking in day 247. 5xswimming in the sea(about 10-15 minutes each time) instead of cold shower and managed to get slightly burnt shoulders whilst sunbathing. The water was quite salty and clear, and I found out that we can see for about 30-40 centimeters in the sea water with our eyes open without getting any irritation from salt in the water.Overall feel good and hoping you are all good too!

 

Overall a nice day today.

Hard working and in the evening went for the workout

 

Hello Fellows,

It has been months of binging and not controlling my actions. So, I decided to put lower goals for now. I changed my counter to just no porn and have the compromise not to watch porn for 90 days.

This put me out of this challenge. I'll be back, I promise.

And the journey continues...

 

Day 3

PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river.

Today was ok. Had some strong urges to relapse. I’m proud of myself for the way I responded. I checked in with my accountability buddy and I cooked myself a delicious carbonara while listening to a podcast on addiction. I prayed the rosary too which was good.

Reading a book atm called Bittersweet: How Sorrow and Longing Make Us Whole by Susan Cain. It’s helping me quite a bit.
I am a sensitive person so I often get depressed, or sad, and I feel bad for being sad, as our culture expects us to be happy all the time, and at work and church we feel like we have to keep up appearances. But this book is all about how life opens up to us when we open up ourselves and admit that we are in pain or lonely or afraid. And how sharing our fears with others is actually one of the greatest ways to bond with others. It’s making me realise that everybody has fears and we all do things to meet needs. It’s making me a lot more compassionate towards myself and others, and it’s nice to feel this way for a change.

I think this depression I’m going through atm is teaching me some things, and I’ll have learnt some good lessons when I eventually emerge out the other side. Looking forward to it.