The Lord of the Rings Challenge

20 days

 

49 (17 hard mode) days complete

My urge state is a little better, but I still have to consciously keep it safe and I will do so

 

I just noticed the Orc and Uruk ranks are gone xD my bad

Day 12 - Hobbit, The old watchtower Amon-Sul

 

48 days – With boats given by the Elfs you sail on the river Anduin. The journey continues south to Amon Hên.

Yesterday was a good day, I spent most of the day working. In the evening I wanted to play basketball but unfortunately the weather was bad, it was raining.

Today I will go workout after the work

 

Good luck friend. I m sure you will make it.

 

Check In Day 2!
No routine Done yet but I did cleaning the apartment (30min)
I'll do some meditation later
Greets out!

 

day 3, day 4

 

Dawn of the 17th day.

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

16 Days Free of PMO.

I will read all your messages tomorrow, as I am feeling very dizzy today. Just logging in to check in , urges are quite strong but we press on.

Stay Strong!


16 days – Touched by your bravery, the gentle Elves of Rivendell give you an elven cloak. The cloak has a hood and is fastened by a green brooch. It acts as camouflage when PMO units are around.

 

1 day
Relapsed the thuesday after work. I had a lot of flashbacks of my last relapse, so that gots me. Stronger again and I know that will not happen again. Something that maybe affected was that I'm not doing exercise, but I will return to it the next week.

Today I didn't worked out but I took a cold shower.
Keep strong

 

Day 357

 

Damn, I need help. Ive just been going off and on these past weeks man. I had so much motivation but now Im down bad again. I have religiously watched Hamzas videos on self improvement and nofap and I am going to endulge into a time of celibacy. No PMO. No women.

One good thing these past weeks though - I have been to the gym every single day. Putting that work in, and its showing. Getting my creatine/protein down. I've probably never been in a better "aestethicaly" shape than as of now.

Day 0 today.

PS: If anyone is interested in becoming a accountability partner let me know!

 

91 days – The Gate is closed but Gollum reveals there´s a secret entrance to Mordor. With a sigh of relief you turn south on the borders of Ephel Dúath, the Mountains of Shadow.

 

One thing I have no clue about is what's a reasonably normal sexual attraction. When does it cross the line into sexual lust? I know there's nothing wrong with being sexually attracted to the lady I'm soon marrying. We have yet to have sex so it's quite easy to get aroused. It would be nice to be able to hold her hand without having to worry about getting an erection when I'm not prepared to follow through.

 

check out (day2) a bit late but better than no check out
no urges - did no routine ...will do some tomorrow morning !
Good night

 

Day 11 no PMO. Turned 45 today. Good day so far. Gonna have to read all your posts tomorrow. Too busy today. Have a great day everyone!

 

Day 15 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 201 out of 209.
Carrying on!

 

Day 92

 

Day 1 complete. At Buckland, Bilbo gives me Sting--an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when PMO forces are around. Quest Item -- Sting

Sorry for not checking in yesterday, Fellowship. Very busy yesterday, and the day itself was full of good things. However, I was extremely aroused when I woke up, and I masturbated right away without even thinking about it or trying to fight. No porn, thankfully. I can say with complete honesty that I hadn't looked at a single screen all day, hehe. What's crazy is that, this morning, I woke up a few minutes before my alarm went off as a result of a wet dream. Very strange that I would have one of those the day after a relapse, but that's the way the cookie crumbles, I suppose.

@RiseToGreatness Thank you for your explanation. I want to summarize it like this:
--Acknowledge the craving.
--Identify the surface-level desire.
--Identify the true desire buried deeper.
--Recognize that the surface-level desire will not solve the craving.
--Create an action plan!
--Do some simple relaxation exercises.
--Engage the action plan!

I think that about 95% of my relapses come from attempting to fulfill two desires: desire for knowledge (curiosity about porn, refreshing old memories) or desire to use up energy (feeling "full," feeling tense, like I have to do some action to relieve the pressure). Reading a book or doing a crossword puzzle can help with the first one. Doing pushups, situps, or pullups, or going to find somebody to talk to, can help with the second one.

St. Joan of Arc, pray for us!