The Lord of the Rings Challenge

As shameful as I feel, I have to confess today is the beginning of day 1. I will keep fighting , even if it is a losing battle

 

Day 359

 

thanks brother to take the time for the advice. Yes you are right, I know that the social medias are something really bad, and yestarday I just know that install tinder will make me relapse but I didn´t care. A bad desition. But today it's an other day.

 

Day 0, relapsed yestarday.
I worked out and took a cold shower. I know that I can do better.

Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 11
All the relaxing actually made things easier and more difficult at the same time. I indeed needed to relax and loose up, but it kinda made my drive go to the roof. I went swimming again this morning and did more relaxing stuff, but I know I did it kinda flirting with the feeling. We all know what's like to be there: we like having our drive higher, but when we start searching for this feeling, we might end up searching for pleasure itself, so there's a lot of danger in there.

I feel like I'm preceding a relapse. I have been having the same feelings and thoughts that I had on the days before my relapses. This makes me tremble and I honestly don't know what to do.

 

checkin out day 1 Im rly tired now,,, I tryin to do some relaxation before sleep
not much words
see ya tomorrow!

 

The story of any of our relapses can pretty much be summed up as "I did not care." It would be great to turn that "I don't care" to the opposite direction.

 

51 days – Paddeling down the river, you crossed The Gates of Argonath, The Pillars of Kings.




Great day today, spent most of the day watching course.

In the evening went for the workout.
Also had a NoFAP accountability group online meeting, which was nice.

 

Day 17 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 203 out of 211.

The day counter in my signature disappeared today, and it looks like this bug is affecting many users sitewide. That's weird.

I took my kids to the community pool today and have been dealing with the after effects of being around so much skin for hours. Rather than ogling attractive women in bikinis, or spending my time and attention trying hard to avoid doing so, I just enjoyed playing with the kids and noticed any noticing as analytically and clinically as possible. But it does bring up some urges and I admit I almost gave in to the urge to fish online in a moment of distraction. That's why I'm here now, doing my check in. I'll pivot to other distractions after this. Thanks fellowship.

 

Day 94

 

52 (20 hard mode) days complete

A day with my wife. We watched a movie, there were several sex scenes during which I turned my head away without any problem.

 

23 days, proud of myself
Congratulations @hardcore_detox very nice work
@newbobido good that you go there. I'm curious for your experiences

 

check In Day 2

 

Dawn of the 20th day.

Missed from yesterday.

– Bree sends aid! Bill, a strong and kind pony, joins your quest by carrying rations and items.

Quest Aid – Bill, the pony

Looking forward to marrying my soon to be wife.

 

Day 14 no PMO. We fly home today and I’ll be back in my normal life tomorrow. My relapse two weeks ago was right after a vacation so I’m a little worried about that happening again.

 

Day 0
Hard but optimistic

Last night I had a talk with my wife about porn. On the one hand it’s heartbreaking to see how much she hates it and how much she respects me lass because of that. But on the other hand, we both know that porn itself is not the problem, the way I use porn as a coping mechanism is the real problem. Of course that porn is kind of evil in itself, but most people can use it without it ruining their lives and I can’t, and that is why I need to quit. But as my life get better (I am no longer in depression and for the first time in years I am happy and hopeful) my ways of using porn also changes. I’m still addicted, but even after I relapses I still feel human, and that is such an improvement. A couple of years ago I made it two weeks clean and I almost kill myself because I’ve hated myself so much. Right now I'm on day zero and I just feel like I need to break the habit, and not change my life or I’ll die.

I truly believe that I can beat this habit and be free. And while we talked last night she asked if there are any books of people that have done what I’m trying to do. Not of heroin addict fighting to rebuild their lives. But just normal people that try to quit porn to have a better life. And I said I don’t know about any book like that, and she just said, then you should write one. And that just blew my mind. So I’m going to do it. Try and write a book titled “how I quit porn” and see where it would take me.
This is the first day. And that is okay.

 

I feel a huge desire to type 'ass' in the google search bar and wonder of into the results. I feel such a relief confessing it here. I think I will manage without doing that

 

Day 0
I will start here & will posting more my updates.

 

A little worry is okay. When do don't worry, that's the prime time to get swept away by a trigger. That's how I'll look at it.

Writing a book will be an incredible journey for you.

 

1 days
Low urges yestarday. My laptop die this week so I have to repair an old one that I have there or buy other one. One bad thing about that is that I lost the access to my progress datasheet of nofap, because in that pc it's the only place that I have the email saved, and now I can't remember my email where I have my datasheet. I got mad a while but I'm better now, maybe I will create another one or something.

Keep strong my brothers.