Developed Unwanted Triggers

my past with girls has led me to develop this cuck fetish that slowly developed after being cheated and lied to multiple times. often them doing sexual things with the guy they cheated on me with which led to me having an even bigger PMO addiction and purposely going for girls who cheat to satisfy my urges and cravings. i didnt intend for this to happen to me. i started off as just a porn addiction then masturbation and orgasm addiction to where its now just a fetish inside me that looks for women to cheat on me so i can get my orgasm. this is a lot more to deal with than i originally thought. i dont know if this is gonna get worse for me.