What made you realize that you had to quit porn immediately?

Interesting question. I felt scared when I thought I could never quit it. Now I feel hope, reading that so many people manage their lust, it's truly achieavable. There is hope for us all!

 

I knew I had become dependent on more and more extreme porn to get off, but my initial goal was just to get back to a place where vanilla P worked again.

But after seeing "Your Brain on Porn" and the brain scans, I felt a pit in my gut I haven't felt since, well never. It shook me to the core and I knew this was nothing less than an addiction and had to be treated that way. NoFap.com and the stories here have only confirmed how widespread and destructive P really is, it's ruining families and our very culture, it's the elephant in the room of addiction. Porn is the worst drug ever made.

 

I saw a youtube video called "The problem with anime." it's a satire cartoon about a fat anime nerd with a collection of waifu figurines.

As an overweight and frequent anime woman porn user, this video insulted me and scared me. It was like looking into a mirror.

I have shut down my fiverr account which I used to commission anime women soft core porn. It was a hard step, and I am loosing access to all the pictures I have payed for because I am about to delete them all but I must, must, must change.

I do not like the man I see in the mirror and I want to improve.

I don't want to be this person anymore.

 

Brother, you're in the right place. I think you're right, step 1 is to make as clean a break as possible from your triggers, delete it all, have no regrets and don't look back

 

I realised how intertwined porn was with human trafficking, especially back with “amateur” content, and it made me sick. This was in 2009. I can’t imagine how much worse and sinister that connection is now compared to then.

I still had bad M habits even then, combined with weed and hookups. But during one particular bad period in my life about 7 years ago, I realised that I needed to get closer to God, who I grew up following, but ditched when I was around 13-14. I used that to better myself by ditching those habits and trying to be more healthy both physically and mentally.

 

I'm straight and when i started watching gay porn and doing phone sex with other guys it was the shock I needed to get off porn right away.

 

I almost failed college because of it.

 

I’ve always known I had to quit. Just didn’t think it was possible until now. This community gives me hope and answers.

 

When I realise it caused problems in my ex-relationship and also worked as some kind of "false comfort" that I used when I had anxiety, was bored or being depressed. Not saying I am less of these things now, I just decided porn is not doing anything good for my life, but it does do bad things, especially in a relationship.

 

When i wanted to stop living like a little bitch. Scared.depressed.fstigued.bored.beta.feeling like shit allnteh time wasting life

 

Cause I feel better when I let go

 

I'm sorry to tell you, but you are not straight. Just accept it, maybe bi. As a straight man I could not even imagine watching gay porn, would probably make me vomit or just turn away in disgust. Not saying I have a problem with people that are gay, to each their own, but if you are straight you don't watch gayporn.

 

Actually he can be straight. Every individuals' porn habits vary from different factors. Some straight guys can escalate gay porn or also gay men escalate to straight porn. Pornography addiction is actually dopamine addiction, when we see novel, shocking images and videos on the screen we get high, and over times our mammal brains tolerance old pictures/the same type of videos which is called desensitization. And when desensitization occurs user generally use porn for more, escalate to different genres, and increases the intensity to get more emotional stimulation.

Here is a link about it if you haven't already read which can be beneficial to understand why some straight guys attracted to transsexual porn:
https://web.archive.org/web/2017090...n.com/ask-us-iam-attracted-to-gay-transsexual

 

You're certainly entitled to your opinion, but I would respectfully disagree with you. At the worst of my porn addiction, when out in the real world, (i.e. at work, at the gym, grocery shopping, playing sports, or going anywhere) there has never been an attraction to a man. The post from @Summer Son is exactly what happened to me. The porn escalated over time and I needed that new fix. I've seen many postings from guys on these message boards who had the exact same experience as me. I can also tell you that, now as i have worked on conquering my porn addiction the thought of being with another man is something that does not appeal to me at all. The thought of watching gay porn again does not even cross my mind anymore.

 

Agree, when the penis orgasming becomes the endpoint of a porn clip, and you watch thousands (and thousands) of those clips, even timing your own orgasm to the one on screen, it's not shocking you start seeking that out to orgasm to.

PMO will inevitably lead to more and more extreme viewing habits, including gay porn for straight men.

 

There have been several things wich had lead me to stop this addiction, but there was one shocking experience wich I feel is the day I stopped having binges on porn.

That morning I remember that I was locked in my room watching heavy P since I woke up for about 2 hours, without taking breakfast. And my sister was waiting for me to go with a cousin who came from the US (I live in Mexico). By the noon when we and my cousins were reunited they decided to watch a movie wich I didn't wanted to watch, so I didn't watch it. This movie was about a man who kind of tortured people. And I didn't want to watch that movie because (besides sometimes I take it personal) I knew that I was going to interpret peoples pain expresions as something exciting. I didn't watch the movie, but the problem was that I was in the same room in wich they were watching the movie so I saw a scene wich was a very quick gaze but it still made the effect of interpeting that expression as a sexual stimulus. And that day, was the day I realized that if I continued watching porn I was going to escale to some kind of torture porn or saddistic porn to get excited, and that scared me.

Pd. After that gaze, a left the room. And thank God I don't watch porn anymore, and never saw sadistic porn in order to get excited. I realized that I still was watching porn in my imagination, but I have been working on that. The problem with porn is that it deforms, distorts, washes your brain. In my case it made me believ that was I saw was true, was the reality, but now I know it is like a drug, virtual pleasure, virtual sexual intimacy. But know I am much better, thanks to several things.

 

I was overthinking 5 minutes of what to say to my female coworker about how i needed help with something. the thoughts in my head were all sexual and i couldn't see her as a human but only as a sex object. No motivation for anything in life, no interests either. I mean I can go on. Also my personality shines a lot in being PMO free.

 

because PMO gives me anxiety and messes up my pulse rate. These two things give me crippling anxiety and nervousness and it becomes hard to even do basic things. After PMO, I think weird things, like being afraid of my own thoughts and nervous about my own internal organs.

on good streaks, I don't have these weird thoughts that make me nervous. on a good streak, I feel solid and secure within myself. No existential anxiety

 

Alright, you could be right, I just never accounted it before, it's just very foreign for me. But that doesn't mean it's not true.