THE 100 DAY SPARTAN CHALLENGE (OPEN)

Thx. *Hug*

 

Day 11 completed.

 

Day 42. So sorry guys for not checking in. I am fine and continue the streak normally but I was super busy and distracted all the time. I still have a lot of work to do plus to organize my move-out to my new home which is taxing both physically and mentally. Home workouts have become more difficult too with more sets and reps so I am tired all the time pretty much. I know it's just a check in, but even that felt like a chore these previous days. Hopefully you don't mind that I missed five days.

 

Day 17 checking in.

Only six days to reach my biggest streak this year.

I went to the gym yesterday, I chatted with a girl and in the end I even flirted a little and she smiled while looking me straight in the eye.

Me flirting? If until a couple of months ago I couldn't even greet a girl, much less look her in the eye.

Later on, a fairly strong attack appeared, but I immediately remembered the good afternoon I had had and realized that there was no point in spending hours staring at a screen when I can continue working on myself, achieving my goals and spending time with real people and not simple pixels on a screen.

Today I feel happy, encouraged, but without lowering my guard, this is a war and I must not give anything to the enemy.

Let's not give up, no matter how hard the road is.

 

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Got to wake up early and enjoy how nice it is, now if I could only enjoy nighttime again

 

@Kratos_GOW Thanks bro. How are you faring with the heartbreak by the way? Everything's under control?
@CosmeFulanito Woa! Congrats! That's some amazing willpower! Keep it up!

 

Day 3
@Kratos_GOW thanks bro i am here for you too .

@Dana91 hey sis you made it this far plz every relapse counts cuz each one affects your brain you are not starting from zero and from your post it seems like you didn't watch porn so realistically you didn't relapse on the real addiction but in the challenge so i hope you stay on track and you will feel in just few days like i didnt happen but what really did happen is you tasting a little hell to remind you of what you have been through so stay strong and wish you all the best .

 

Day 2
Going strong

 

Day 1

 

Day 20
It’s easier to climb up in my days went on overload. At the same time I developed the addiction when I was an extreme overload. Looking back I can see how it was my way to get instant vacation and to switching from stress and burden and discomfort to vacation in which none of that existed at all at least for a period of time

 

I will also read other people‘s post again in the next few days when I am past this here

 

Day 12 completed. Am heartbroken, I feel numb and empty inside. I can't get myself to think because I fear I'll break down. I just will try to work on myself like a normal day today, I know I can't but I will do as much as I can. I hope all my emotions stay lost and don't return because I can't break down. Not now. I must keep going. And no matter what, I will not relapse.

 

Those feelings will pass in time. Attaching ourselves to PMO for so long breaks down our normal function, but it doesn't destroy it. You have the strength to get past it and start feeling better. I'll be praying for you. God Bless & Mary keep you

 

Day 1- Strong start but I can't be overconfident. Taking baby steps and small everyday tasks to fight the boredom and the urges that eat away at me

 

Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers.

 

In looking for resources and advice to notice triggers when they come I went back to Hamza's old content.



Solid advice. He talks about the rat-in-a-cage cocaine experiment, and puts it into context of our situation as guys with unfulfilling social lives.

Urges are a result of fluctuations in dopamine and testosterone levels that are a call to action... socializing, working hard, pursuing women. As opposed to inaction and fapping.

As for my own triggers, I get horny when I'm sleepy after a meal (breakfast / pre-workout oats yesterday). So I'll go out on a walk after every meal, even when the sun is blistering outside.

Today I'm striving to work for 4 focus blocks as opposed to my usual 2. If I can pull off 6 focus blocks by Thursday evening, I'll reward myself by meeting my gf on Friday.