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Day 161!

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

40 Days Free of PMO.

The thought of loneliness creeps into my mind. I suppose the past couple of days of being alone brought that forward. I tangled with it a bit, as I do not want to be dependant on others to feel whole. I was suppose the uncertainty and anxiety of being alone triggered a lot of "what ifs" and I don't mean PMO here. I look towards our fellowship, towards stoicism and meditation practice.

In these times, it's important to keep ourselves busy in action. So with that being said, I tackle another day of making the days count. I am adamant on growing during this period alone. I will certainly not given in to any temptation of PMO.

Keep training!

@Against_the_demon_in_myself Congrats on reaching Oozaru ! Best of luck with your time abroad, take it as a new adventure. Also, for what you were mentioning yesterday. I would say best not to go down that rabbit hole. It's better for you to push yourself to be the best version of yourself and lead by example. I know certain, if not many, mainstream ideas or thoughts can be frustrating. I'm not telling you to ignore that, but once you are aware, do not give any more of your precious energy and time to them. Work knowing that these are unfortunate realities that you are to contend with at random instances in your life and continue on your path.

 

Day 20

I haven't reached this much for months. And I'm so happy that I did.

 

Day 1

Video games messed with my head again. I usually try to stay away from them, but this time I justified it because it was a mobile game with friends. I thought what’s the harm, it’s just a small mobile game and it’s a social thing.

it consumed my mind for 5 days. I relapsed a bunch of time, stayed up late, didn’t want to work out or eat healthy, or post on here. This happens to me every time I play video games. I must have an addictive personality. It becomes all I think about all day, and I neglect all my responsibilities, always end up relapsing a bunch. I get way too into it and lose all motivation for anything else.

I’m gonna try to stop playing starting today, and get back into routine.

 

I am still a gamer and I still play video games when I can. I only play the ones I like. But I don't let it consume myself too much of my time. Because in the past I done so with certain game genres like MMO RPG and such. You can waste a lot of time such as similar WoW(World of Warcraft). You will be addicted to it if your interested enough. It's good to keep you busy for a time but don't let it consume you too much because it can. Positives, it can prevent you from PMO but it can be a waste of time if you let it. I limit how long I play so I'm fine on my end.

 

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Day 162!

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

41 Days Free of PMO.

Slept well, I actually woke up earlier today and felt just fine. I feel myself more productive, overall. I continue with the norm, meditation, workout, exposure , reading and work.

Here is a nice quote for when things are difficult.

"Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I’m not going to make it, but you laugh inside, remembering all the times you’ve felt that way." -Charles Bukowski

Keep training!

@LLOYYD My issue with video games is that they are made to be addictive. Kudos to you if you can control it, for me it was a nightmare back in the day. Just as bad as PMO. World of warcraft was like the crack of video games lol. There are psychologist's that work onboard gaming companies to make sure people are addicted, all for them to keep coming back.

 

Day 22

I went "Super Saiyan" time at the gym and alleviated my anger.

Urges were light. Stopped at a 4 way section with my car. I saw an attractive woman crossing and I want to stare but I was waiting on the green light.
Temptation overall was kind of pathetic to be honest. I will take it as a win.

Lastly, I regret it now. I regret all my PMO. I regret why haven't started this journey early on or have known the effects were real when I joined here. Just my thoughts.

Now waiting what will the day will hold.

Relaxing. Keep Training Saiyans!

 

Yes, I am pretty good at controlling how long I can play. Know when to stop. Only positives it keeps you busy.

 

Checking in.
I'm back abroad again. Had some urges and some PMO thoughts but managed to let them pass.
I was reminded of how awful it was to have these kind of thoughts often and felt grateful for my progress.

I also felt some sadness over my breakup, some 4 months ago at this point.
I went for a bike ride in the afternoon and passed by the house we used to live together. I felt sad for something I worked so hard to build, fall apart.
I happened upon my ex girlfriend, hadn't seen her in a couple months. There was a very short exchange and we went on our ways.
I really wish it could have worked. I really wish I could go back and tell her I love her and want to be with her.
But sadly I don't believe enough has changed or that there would be a different outcome this time. I don't believe it would work.
And life goes on. Maybe she has someone else, maybe she is over it. Maybe not who knows?
Things change and we have to contend with that fact.

On my side, I'll keep doing things that are good and healthy for me. I'll look after myself.
I don't think we'll be happy together again. But hopefully black will gradually give way to blue.



P.S. @Redemptionisrequired Thank you for the advice. I think it's solid and I really needed it.
I need more peace and tranquillity in my soul and I'll work hard to achieve that.
Keep fighting brothers, never give up!

 

@Kingfisher Take me off the list please. I'm taking time off from the site

 

Day 21. I almost forgot to check in. Sorry.

 

No need to be sorry. Check in whenever you have the free time. As long as your staying consistent on your journey.

I check in for accountability reasons for myself.

 

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