[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

day 16

 

Day 6

 

Day 1

 

Failed again after a 30+ day streak. Feel a bit horny and started watching some porn. I did stop the cycle and it didn't escalate, but I think the honest way is to admit this as a relapse and reset the counter to 0.

 

Day 19

 

16/90- A little bit anxious at the moment and the urges have increased. However, it is nothing that I can't handle.

 

1/90

 

49/90 Geez, what a long day, but still made it through. Didn’t sleep well tho so energy levels were low.

 

Day 5

 

Day 13

Going to kill it. But gotta go one step at a time, getting myself cleaned up first.

 

Day 17

 

Day 1/90

 

Day 2

 

Day 0 ...

 

day 1 done

 

Day 5, Friday. Feeling the urges to look up P and escorts.... The though of what new videos and new escorts I have been missing on bothers my peace of mind. I have also been reading the book "SPAM REMOVED (spam code #001) - REPORT TO MODERATION way to quit porn".

 

50/90 Was a decent day.

 

Day 7

 

17/90 - a very good day for me despite being anxious. I have decided after some introspection that I will tweak my September challenge to reflect the fact that I have made recovery my number 1 priority in life right now until the end of the year to build a firm foundation to become PMO free. Also, this month, I will jog for the sake of jogging and not even measure how many kilometers I run. I will learn web development just because I want to and not bother to measure the time. I want to cultivate more presence this month. Let's see how it goes.

September Challenge
Complete Recovery Nation workshop
Read and research on toxic shame
Read and rehearse (role play) my relapse prevention plan daily
No YouTube
No Social Media (Instagram, Facebook, Reddit e.t.c)
Read and Practice Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) techniques
Read at least 2 books
Love thyself affirmations
Daily Gratitude
Daily meditation
Read and cultivate my values daily
Schedule joy hour everyday

 

2/90