Lonely AF, depressed... suicidal thoughts...

Since you're writing on this forum, you know you want to change.
Real change will happen the day, you'll get tired of being tired. I hope that is now and is what made you write this.
Because it's either that you wanna take control or suicide which is a cowards way of surrendering.
It's your life so ultimately, it's your choice and you do have the key to let them win, but also to win yourself. Which lock would you pick?

Have goals in your life. Woman aren't that important where you're at in life and nofap won't magically make everything alright. Work on yourself, set goals and more importantly complete them, swap the TV shows and shitty youtube prank perverts with as many motivational speeches as possible < because then you watch 17, then 18 and when you get to the 19th one, you wanna go do something about it and a champion is about to be born. You start doing things you want in life. You start failing, which is the most important factor that leads to succeeding - because NO ONE EVER WON without FAILING first. Get rejected and fail again and again. That is the one and only way to making it.

You need to take revenge on the bullies, not my knocking them out with a hammer, but by building your character and having discipline.
Hospitals can fix them but seeing you shine will forever cause them pain. You were born for a greater cause.

We all love women and trust me they will come when they see a man with a passion and a backbone, but don't make them a 1st priority. Make YOU a top priority. It don't work the other way around. Tires are on the ground, not the roof. Work, develop, build yourself. Break out of your comfort zone, even if it makes you cry and your hands shake. And then implement NOFAP on top of all this going full cold turkey and you have a pretty neat start...

Benefits will come. Guaranteed.



(23, virgin, never had a gf, but my mindset has changed and I'm now driven)

 

Tom Cruise, Humphry Bogart, Napoleon, Rham Emanuel (Mayor of Chicago - Triathlon Participant), Prince, Paul Simon, Charlie Chaplin, Picasso, Muggsy Bogues (NBA's shortest player - He could dunk a ball). ALL short.

The good news is there are short petite women too. Believe the best in yourself. Get out and do some stuff that you've never done before! If you don't succeed in skydiving try something else! Seriously though, life is precious and you are too. Get some counseling if you need it. Be kind to yourself.. and accept yourself blemishes and all. We're all messed up a bit, tall, short, wide, thin... it's all good.

 

It wasn't until I had time away from P and had other activities that I realized that it over years was to blame in large measure for my persprctive that everything was terible. Youve lost all perspective and i know this because i have been where youare now. I remember what is was like to not see any benefit to life and not want death so much as oblivion from how i felt. It has gotten so much better for me and countless others like us. Just put one foot in front of the other... you've helped me by posting how you are feeling (I don't expect that to make sense yet, but it wll). Please, go through these forums and find 2 other men who are in the same pain or worse than you and write something - anything- encouraging, even if just a couple words. And if you can, do so tomorrow, too. Also, you can message me or other men here. Im not going to say you're OK when we know you're not - I wasn't, but getting much better. I am promising you that you don't have to feel this bad. Things will be tough from time to time, but if you continue to ask for help AND ask others how they are doing and try to encourage them you will be amazed! Hang in there, brother. We love you, man.

Press on regardless!

 

Girls want happy men that are full of life. Its one the reasons that some claim to get more attention through nofap.

Most (including myself) report more energy which leads to happier day to day living. So keep going.

Free yourself from the pussy spell. Or stay miserable. Society wants to make you a slave to women through sexual desire.

All I can tell you is that when I get a good streak going and attain the mindset of independence from sexual conquest I seem to have much more luck with women. Infact they tend to do the work for me.

(I have adult acne and a feminine face so I am really not at an advantage in any way.)

Two kinds of pussy spell. 1. Chasing it due to sex addiction. 2. Chasing it due to need for emotional fulfilment.

You sound like number 2, like I was. Let me tell you right now for a FACT. A girlfriend and sex will NOT fulfill you.

You might think it will/does but you will see the error in this.

Women aren't gods.

They won't cure your depression.

Personal happiness is a personal responsibility.

 

@Spiral..

Well said dude