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Sounds like she may simply be a friendly person. And you are starved for affection so you mis-interpreted a simple smile. I was the same way at your age. I remember a friendly girl in the grade above me was at a music event I was attending. She made the comment "Jeff... we never see each other unless it's at one of these musical events." I took that as a sign she wanted to see more of me so a few weeks later I called her and asked her on a date. She said no very suscinctly. I know its not easy but maybe next time strike up a casual conversation with her or just say hello and gauge her interest a little more. You have nothing to lose.

 

I smile alot at everyone, a smile is just a smile. Alot of men think I'm interested but I'm only friendly. A smile is like a gesture or a hello. Nothing more but I only take numbers from people I've interacted with and have had actual conversation with never a random person. Next time you see someone you're interested in just start a conversation rather than being to afraid to speak. It gets easier with time, good luck! Stay healthy, stay strong

 

I can tell you that I've done things similar to this girl (although I'm a guy), and the girl has asked me out and I've declined... but to be honest, I was (a) incredibly flattered, and (b) I could see how I gave her the confidence to do it. I've done this at least twice, but it's just because I'm friendly. In both cases I've found the girls attractive, and would've loved to get to know them more, but I either didn't want to bother with the work of getting to know someone, or because I was/am(?) a porn addict, I was getting my fill elsewhere anyway so I didn't feel like I was losing anything. I dunno. Probably elements that were similar there to your case, probably not.

 

Of course! Why wouldn't you? Even say hi as you pass her. After all she has done nothing wrong and neither have you. Your challenge is not to make this very small interaction into something bigger than it was. Move on. Be kind and respectful... and move on.
And I would suggest you stop putting down your appearance. Think of the more noble path...work hard with your studies...reboot your brain and get to a healthy place...a place where your mind recognizes a smile for what it is and nothing more. Once you get there and hopefully you can take a few risks and make conversation instead of trying to read the tea leaves. By the way, "risk" is a poor choice of words. There is really nothing at risk by starting a conversation.
I know it's not as easy as it sounds. At 16 there is a lot going on physically and chemically besides the porn addiction! I wish you well. And here's hoping you can become a better 16 year old than I was.
Finally let me add. At your age I had cystic acne and I looked terrible and felt bad about myself. Today I have been married almost 19 years and I have a beautiful family. I tell you to help you realize there still a lot of life to live...a lot of success to be had. Changing your perspective now and taking steps to live a noble life will pay huge dividends for you...I can't tell you how many of us 49 year Olds wish we had done that at 16.