The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 18 no PMO. Feeling ok. We had a nice weekend and now it’s time to get ready for work. I also meet with my therapist today so it should be a good day.

 

Day 33 Checking in.
Mind is calm, all the diciplines is becoming a new habit and being accomplished.
I am still exerting some force to direct myself, but my willpower is simply stronger now.

Even my youtube addiction is getting controlled.
haven't watched for more than 35 min this weekend.
1 month a go i was binging 6 hours+ straight on weekend and 2 hours in the week watching anime, movie reviews, and other useless shit.

I feel i am more in control and more confident. i can do this.

 

Day 173
Another busy day

 

Don't know why even after sleeping for 7 hrs, I still feel tired . Has anybody got any suggestions to overcome this?

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

97 Days Free of PMO.

I feel under the weather, started slowly yesterday and accelerated today. Possibly coming down with a cold , my sleep was also poor. The sleep more likely due to some stress that arose. I will write it out in my own personal journal. I am tired though, I will rest today as much as I can before work.

Stay Strong!

@NewLifeForGood86 You achieved an awesome streak. Do not binge and your progress is not lost. Rise again!

@daddyG1981 Please do share, I think many of us can benefit from that. Knowledge equips us in our fight.

@Baki Hanma Thank you for sharing that video, Dr Huberman and Dr Peterson in one video. Surprising! Glad to see serious people taking an interest in this topic.

@Diderik Welcome back brother!

 

16 days – Touched by your bravery, the gentle Elves of Rivendell give you an elven cloak. The cloak has a hood and is fastened by a green brooch. It acts as camouflage when PMO units are around.

Quest Item - Elven Cloak

@Gallade_Templar I feel you, and I will be pissed as well in a few days when I relapse. But the same thing you mention is keeping me going as well. I woudn't dare giving up, not posting here anymore and PMOing regularly. I'll just continue the journey knowing that it's the right thing to do

 

Do exercise, eat healthier and maybe some caffeine could help. Green tea it's a good option to reduce the sleepy problems.

 

2 days
Low urges yesterday, worked almost all day. I have a lot of stuffs to do, so I'm focused on finish them.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 437 & 438

 

Time to get back on the wagon. Checking in for day 0

 

Day 35 Checking in.
Porn free I'm so happy guys, I feel like I renewed my brain cells.

Now the YouTube challenge:
Gonna aim for only 1 video of YouTube a day between 5 to 15 min max.
Gotta make the clip something productive or motivational.
Today i saw this video. I am happy i did cause i was already reading about Greek mythology and the Iliad.



This is the "realization" I got from it.
God, the Universe is talking to us friends.
I want to share it with you all:

If you give up porn,
Glory will be yours, They will write stories about your victories, The world will remember you name.
And you will never be the same, you will never come back and join the ranks of the weak and enslaved by the media.

Awaken! You are a Demigod! Arise and Fight!

 

Day 0.

No problem. I am getting there. Growing every day. I will get success. I have no doubts. Thursday my accountability friend takes over management on my covenanteyes. Won't be able to access p on my phone or computer. I see this working. Spent an hour in adoration today. Healed a lot there. Will continue to go. With the amount of healing in my heart lately and no access to online porn I know we got this.

 

There's a science of sleep class on Masterclass.com taught by a world renowned sleep doctor. It's like 15$ for a month of watching their vids

 

So I guess I'm an Elf in this challenge. Makes me feel kinda good saying that.

I always wanted to be like Legolas and the elves when I read LOTR. That was so cool. How they're just young and beautiful for a thousand years or how long

And they're good at fighting

Hey! My youtube video got 1.2k views!!!! Yay!!!!! I'm super excited ^_^

I had two videos up that got 4.8k views total but then I sorta Ommmmmmmmmmmmm

Got anxious about being on youtube cause I'm a introvert and mostly keep to myself aside from my girl and my Otaku friends I see sometimes like Once or twice a month

There's this meetup on weekdays that I'll try out I think. That's just like.....Ommm......They....it was uncomfortable. But, they're also the most popular group in my area. And it really wasn't a BAD reception on the first try.

Some girl with purple hair talked to me for a long time but then she kinda ignored me. Who knows how she'll act next time. I'm not into her like that it was just a different interaction that stood out.

Some other girl....she's like a masseuse? I didn't know what we were talking about. But then she was nice when I left and said hope to see you again. And some guy named Sanjeep was like, all into long dist running and going for his first marathon soon. He was okay. :\

Really I didn't feel much affection for the group from the getgo. It was just whatever lol . Some people to chat with. One was ok, another seemed ok with me and the third just seemed like different

Purple hair told me to post to youtube everyday though. And I thought she was crazy, but here I am doing it and it's going great. So maybe sometimes people who are different in some ways have good advice?

I dunno about going for running. I mean maybe a little sometimes ?_? Like after a workout if I have time

I usually just do 10mins jump rope before calisthenics. That's good enough for cardio if I do it twice a week according to the research.

----------into the shire-----------

Here I sit in my Smial. Smoking my pipe. I can blow an arrow with the smoke. It looks great when I shoot the arrow at Gandalfs smoke Dragons. He's the King of course. I am but a guest in his home. I'm happy to serve in the Shire. Why would I leave? Well, why would I leave? Maybe to rival the adventures of Bilbo and Frodo...To be a master of my own destiny! One who stares death in the face just to strengthen his nerves. And fights a hundred battles bearing the scars to prove it with pride.

Yes, perhaps it's time for Pema to find out what he can do. How far can one Hobbit go in the quest to destroy the new threat to the continued existence of hobbits everywhere.

 

Check in day 15

 

Certainly: it’s the Jordan Peterson podcast, episode 296 where he interview neurologist Dr Andrew Huberman. Very interesting insights into the dopamine cycle. Very technical so maybe not everyone will enjoy. Also I know that Jordan Peterson divides opinion - all I’m advocating for here is this podcast. Last 15 mins is where it gets specific on PMO, but you maybe need to listen to the whole thing to follow the thread if you’ve no prior knowledge on this topic.

One key takeaway I’ll drop in here. Dopamine response is actually about anticipation, not the ‘event’ itself. So the trigger and then anticipation of PMO is what the dopamine system is about, it peaks in advance. and then at the event it crashes. Same with drugs etc. so the addictive pull is about the craving and anticipation. They compare it to Meth and cocaine. The other thing they said about this is if you are triggered and anticipation grows, then dopamine crashes to below baseline levels. Which is why this shit is so hard. This podcast doesn’t offer solutions, but just helps add understanding to the neurobiology of what’s going on with us in this fight.

Also Day 24 checking in.

 

Day 19 no PMO. Woke up just now with massive stress. It’s 2am and I need to get some more sleep. I don’t feel like PMO is going to be an issue today but I don’t feel great about my situation. Gonna out on a podcast and hopefully I’ll go back to sleep.

 

Day 22 - You enter the cold Misty Mountains, the Hithaeglir.

Sharing this here again.
Almost slip. But I escape it. Then I was thinking about something because I saw a badge of a male P item. I never owned that specific one then my mind decided to say "How does this male P item works then I said to myself" then I replied "No! Don't check it out in the site again from last relapse!" and immediately removed that in my mind. That's it.
Gym and reading including other things as well.

PMO Orcs are good. Staying watchful and moving along.

Hmm interesting turn of events in the Rings of Power. No spoilers.

I never read the Iliad but maybe I will later. My cousin told me some of it when I was younger because he read it. I might be interested in it later.
But this movie is still one of my favorite movies until this day. Still motivates me whenever I watch it.
Thanks for sharing the words Fellowship friend.

Moving along in the Misty Mountain with the Fellowship.
Keep on going Fellowship!

 

Well done avoiding the slip!! I’ve had similar conversations with myself when I’ve almost stumbled. I think every time do this we get a little stronger

 

Day 0...

PMO'd... This shit is terrible. I feel there are a few major reasons with regards to failing.
1) When I have a day off: no school, work, etc. I gotta figure out how I will plan these days, since those are always the days I relapse.
2) Being alone.
3) Social media: although I've deleted a lot, especially Youtube is a huge trigger for initiating PMO.

Let's try and focus on these points. We keep going...!