What caused you're addition?

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I think a few things played parts leading to my addiction. The first step was a traumatic porn related experience when I was very young.
I stumbled upon some porn tapes at the age of 7 I think. I took one of the VHS cases and inspected the pictures in pure shock and weird feelings.
I instantly knew that I shouldn't be watching those pictures and that it was wrong, nevertheless after that I sneaked back where I found the tapes a few times until they eventually vanished.
After this experience nudity and pornographic things begun to fascinate me and gave me some strange satisfaction. Though it wasn't until junior high when I started using porn regularly. Back then I was lonely and depressed and porn was my escape plan. Thus the conditions were the second part, which finally triggered my use.

 

A very lonely, isolated childhood with abusive siblings and a major control-freak father. I was looking for comfort.

 

A really painful sexual accident that put me off partner sex entirely. PMO was simpler, less painful and less dangerous in the first few months that followed so it seemed like a better option. Even after I started to recover from the accident, I just held on to PMO for too long and it started to cause me ED and other problems.

 

I was 12 years old when i first time watched porn. I was a lonely boy but when i watched porn the loneliness disappeared. I got stuck in porn immediately. When i was 16 i realized that i'm porn addict. I have tried to quit really hard after that. Now i'm 26 and still life is a living hell everyday struggling with porn. I have really started to think that i just can't stop watching porn. This addiction makes me crazy im just so fucking tired and depressed!

 

For me, as a teenager I liked the pleasure of it. Watching beautiful girls whom I would seldom meet in my real life. Naked body turned me on. But as time went by needed more and more extreme stuff.
I have a request, I suppose its better that we focus on how to get out of this rather than how we got into it.

 

I am glad to see people in this thread are all more than 25 days !! You guys inspire me !! thank you

 

I understand your request @Pradeep, some people like to focus on it as it helps them understand the root of the problem and then they can better find a way to fix the underlying issue.

I am like you though in that dwelling on these problems does absolutely no good for me.

As the saying goes for people like you and me @Pradeep, focus 100% on building the new.

 

These books apply to all addictions I know it states alcohol in the link, they are written by a Harvard addiction specialist who is a pioneer in the field of addictions. They can help pinpoint the root of your addictions and break them,


http://www.amazon.com/The-Heart-Addiction-Understanding-Alcoholism/dp/0060958030


http://www.amazon.com/Breaking-Addiction-7-Step-Handbook-Ending/dp/0061987395

My porn addiction was a learned behavior taught to me by my friend who lived a couple houses down the street. I mean my uncle had playboys and I viewed porn with my cousins too, basically it was all over the fuckin place and you couldn't really avoid it. My masturbation habit was developed by the energy and habits of my parents, they were very sexual people and the energy in the house no doubt turned me into a horny little bastard, like dry humping stuffed animals in my room in preschool. Anyways, no use dwelling on this stuff for me personally.

 

Autogynephilia, HOCD, PIED....

 

For your answer to be accurate Kris, these things would have to be established habits before you started masturbating to porn. Otherwise, these things are the result, not the cause of your addiction to porn. In most cases these things arise from the addiction.

 

An early exposure to sex.

 

I was kinda chubby in high school and there were no other gay guys that I was interested in dating, so it was pretty much me and good ol' buddy Porn. SUCKED. I'm getting better now though!

 

For me it was a coping mechanism. I have bipolar and have frequent mood swings which used to be quite extreme. For personal teasons I dont drink, never used drugs so I turned to the combo of porn and masturbation to provide escape. It works but like the viscous cycle this addiction is its followed by guilt and shame before the need strikes again.
I feel ashamed and hate myself for it but im an addict.

 

My girlfriend at the tender age of 14 broke up with me on our 3 month "anniversary", then started going out with a guy two days later.. A year later of fighting, bitching and getting over her, friends at school talked regularly about porn, so.. I decided I'd see what the fuss was all about.
Then the stress from all the tension between her and I just found a solution in porn.

Bad idea. Been trying to get over it ever since. I'm turning 18 in December.

 

It started with curiosity, as I had began with video games that portrayed it, and went from those to the internet. I would say the true cause of it was me being so incredibly shy. I told myself when I first started doing it that it's because I didn't have a girlfriend, so basically that it would fill that void in my life until I did. Once it became addicting that excuse didn't even cross my mind. Now I can look back and see just how low I was during those times, and I don't want to ever go back or use that as an excuse for being lonely.

 

I discovered masturbation at a young age and I kept doing it because it felt good. As I got older, I started using artificial stimulation because nothing wasn't enough. Curiosity and dirty friends got me into using the more hardcore, dirtier side of "porn" as we know it, then things kept getting worse until I discovered the drawbacks of PMO.

Stress, negative feelings, horniness... they all contribute to relapses due to a very simple concept. I fear discomfort, I keep running away from it and PMO is like an escape behavior. Of course, the dopamine is doing all the work behind the scenes, it's the main cause of most addictions and the feelings it gives you usually causes binging.

 

Same reason. Dopamine hits take away loneliness and sadness.