Too much SR?

Is there such a thing?

I suppose I am asking guys who have done very long streaks. I am on 7 months myself. Can SR for a very long time have adverse effects? Can a prolonged aura make you almost alien-like? Any observations to report on socializing, interacting with others (and the opposite sex), personal endeavors while on long SR streaks? How about day-to-day functioning?

If you eventually stopped your streak (not counting a relapse here, but voluntarily), what made you do so? How did you know it was time?

Thanks in advance.

 

It is Boss-level, no doubt (not me, but the streak). I'm just concerned about the effects described in my initial post. Perhaps it is all unfamiliar and "alien" because it's not a common thing guys do these days. I also won't deny that it's very arduous for me, which is why I asked those questions.

 

This was me in the past, only because I thought my sexuality was inextricably linked to porn, and therefore I believed I should protect myself and women from that dark entity of me.

I was wrong.

SR - a lengthy streak - with spirituality dissolves the P-influence on your sexuality and resets it back to its default natural, powerful state. That's the aim of SR (as well as the other positives). If guys are paranoid about returning to porn and therefore have become sex averse, they're looking at it wrong.

Does this happen with a partner, or, shall we say, on your own?

 

I haven't found this to be the case for me. You need way longer than two months; many guys on here will attest to this. That being said, two months is a good streak, but at two months I still had major P-influence in my sexuality/horniness, even as I was abstaining.

It does depend the guy and the density of his past usage, but I think the 6-month mark is where one starts to see lasting changes, or benefits. It's a dramatic transformation by that point, and perhaps a while after 6 months the plateau may happen.

 

Some concerning observations....

I seem to have gotten more flirtatious gestures / smiles from women prior to my seven-and-a-half-month streak. In those prior days, PMO was still a struggle, but I had huge gaps where I didn't indulge (weeks/months). I always knew the threat and the fetishes etc were always lurking in the background, though. I was also an anxiety-riddled person; constantly unsure/unstable and certain individuals took advantage of my nicer nature. I nevertheless kept exercising and dieting well (also from a place of anxiety) and had - on the surface - a good physique. There was a stubborn part of me that didn't want to engage in romantic relationships though, or even flirt, because I knew that my mental health/internal instability was a mess. I also didn't trust my sexual side, because it was so influenced by P. In that state, though, women still frequently showed flirtatious gestures/smiles.

Now, nearing an eight-month SR streak, women's reactions to me are very different. There is much more respect, mirroring, probably some intimidation (many instantly bow their heads in my presence) and perhaps hidden attraction (they bite their lips etc). It does feel that this aura of mine is "robbing" those women of their randomness, their playfulness etc (but we all know how we've all been shattered by this before by women who'd been in our lives). The women I do frequently converse with (e.g. friends, coworkers) seem to be very comfortable with me; they converse freely and some seem to want to latch onto my presence by being physically near me.

However, I'm no douchebag. I don't wish to have this reception of seriousness from women around me.

HOWEVER:
As I've frequently said in my journal, I've never had so much energy, fluidity, creativity, intelligence and insight before - even in that former time I mentioned here. My workouts are the gym are so beautiful. My conditioned side is still finding these changes arduous, but the Energy won't relent; it insists on changing me.

A conclusion I'm making is in that aforementioned pre-streak, even though women were flirtatious, I think maybe many of them probably weren't serious? Perhaps they were teasing? I don't know. I know if I'd followed up on their flirting and gotten into a relationship with any, I would be a poor partner: unsure, indecisive, not a good leader, second-guessing myself all the time. I'd also be struggling with P-damage, which is another embarrassing aspect.

What am I really trying to say here? I don't know. SR is good for me personally, individually, as a singular person. It is an entirely solitary journey of transformation, uncertainty and evolution. I'm not sure if I've met a woman, yet, who can properly complement me. What woman, I sometimes feel, would want to be with a freak like me, an alien, which is how I feel sometimes almost eight months in? Guys in relationships have girlfriends yes, but they're probably releasing with their gfs very often -- I don't think I can go back to the fog, the subdued mind, the anxiety-to-please-her anymore. My friend in a relationship admitted that he feels less intelligent. I have seen a new realm of existence from SR, and while I long for female company sometimes, I don't know if I am willing to undergo the sacrifice to the SR effect.

Thoughts are appreciated.

 

I don't think I'd be interested in that - sounds to me like a huge, frustrating tease.

 

How can lovemaking in the true sense of the word occur without mutual orgasm? And I think even if SR practice is not sacrificed while making love, one is still frustrating oneself....