The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Day 16

Urges: 3/5
Thoughts: 4/5

NNN is now halfway over and I'm still hanging in there despite the 'starvation' kicking in. Energy levels are back down again today, so I'm going to listen to my body today and get to bed early.

 

Day 2
Successful
Feeling bliss & happiness after a long time

Thanks for your inspiration msg.
I completely agree with it escaping the intense emotions lead to our dependency/addiction.
We just have to learn to cope and not escape.
With time things get better

 

End of day 1

I am still here.

@til_im_free thanks for the encouragement. I am also a prof of it

 

Day 10

 

Check in day 45

 

2 days
@Redemptionisrequired I won't, I promise

 

It's been extremely cold here lately. Wearing my leather jacket inside! Been very tired and low energy too. I've been consuming "Healing The Shame That Binds You" by John Bradshaw. Very hard hitting!

 

Day 2

I am a bit sick, so I have strong temptations

 

Stay strong brother. Doing best during hard times is something which separates us from the crowd. I believe that you can easily pass this one.

 

10 days

 

Day 8 no PMO

 

Day 2 is begining
I'm really exhausted today, I've been reforming my room for the past 5 days and I think today I might finish it. I'm so tired that I don't even have the energy to think in PMO. I just have to be careful not to let this tempt me

 

8 days – Gildor Inglorion, an Elf, crosses your path causing a Nazgûl that was chasing you to flee. You stay the night with his company of Elves talking about your struggles with PMO. "Courage is found in unlikely places" he says. He gives you an Hithlain rope, a magical rope, light and flexible, yet extremely strong.

Quest Item – Hithlain rope

 

Day 41

Days to 2023------46days
Goals:
1.) Get Better At Studies
2.)Get Better Physique

Time spent today :
Exercises: 0
Studies : 30min+ 1hr 20min

Time wasted today:3 hrs+3hrs 30min (I ended up watching anime for 3 hrs 30min continuously even though I am having an exam tomorrow. Now this really becoming a pain )+2 hrs
---------------------------------8hrs 30min-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


Total time spent :

Exercises:4 hrs 30min
Studies :4 hrs 50min
Total time wasted :31 hrs 20 min


Yesterday I ended up wasting 2 more hrs but with some last min patch up along with the time I studied today morning I think did the exam pretty well considering the fact that I hardly studied. I am pretty sure I could have easily scored better .

Get back on track again .

 

Today
Day 42 up

Days to 2023------45days
Goals:
1.) Get Better At Studies
2.)Get Better Physique

Time spent today :
Exercises: 0
Studies :2 hrs

Time wasted today:7 hrs

Total time spent :

Exercises:4 hrs 30min
Studies :6hrs 40 min
Total time wasted :39 hrs 50min

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

128 Days Free of PMO.

I had a mild level of anxiety that woke me up this morning, trying to figure out what caused it but still unsure. Wim Hof Breathing and diaphragmatic breathing helped me disperse it. Highly suggest this practice for those who experience anxiety. It is even something I used yesterday, prior to a difficult conversation that needed to be had.

Trying my best not to shy away from life's day to day challenges.

Stay Strong!

@daddyG1981 Yes, this is because the anticipation of climax and the search for "that" video elevates dopamine. Once you release, your baseline levels drop and your dopamine level goes below that new baseline. This likely is the cause of you feeling even worse. The more you consume through that avenue, the lower your baseline goes and the less and less rewarding PMO becomes.

 

11 days
Low urges yesterday, just a little moment of peak urges, exactly at nigth and I had the temptation of stay late (one of my triggers), but I took the desition to go to sleep, so good for now.
I want to return to the work out sessions, I suspeded them for health problems but I think I will start tomorrow.
Keep strong my brothers

 

Day 17

Urges: 1/5
Thoughts: 2/5

Energy levels back up today, put in a workout today and cold shower afterwards. Been thinking about putting together a D&D Character Creation Kit as a project to keep me busy and spend less time on youtube.

 

11/15 and 11/16 2022 completed

day 2 - no O
day 2 - No M & self stimulation
day 2 - No P / Psub / addiction-induced arousal

Had a few resets since my last post. Really find my determination to get rid of PMO is just not there.

 

Day 11