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(悟) Low-Class Warrior ▬Training in the ► SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE◄
“Freedom begins with self-discipline.”


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Even though I had my sponsor put in a parental controls password on my phones to restrict the internet, I noticed this morning a certain familiar porn site coming up in my recommendations tab. I kept closing the square and deleting it but every time I refreshed the page it came back. After like the 5th time I got curious and hovered over it. Low and behold images came up. Not to mention it was one of the stage progressions of genre I had fallen into later down the path that doesn’t align with my values/identity. I tried ignoring but images started flooding my brain. Started snooping and seeing what other cookies/history files still remained on my device. Clicked one and the images on the site weren’t blocked. As I sat and started I felt that old intense feeling arise, but before I could even fap a feeling came over me like an orgasm even tho I hadn’t even touched it. Tried clearing cookies but it won’t let me adjust settings with parental controls on. Feeling very triggered and fearful of regression. Calling that out and making a commitment here to contact my sponsor and have him help me shore up my parental controls.

I don’t consider this a full on acting out binge but just the fact that I started getting curious about images is a big enough flag for me. I am learning to be more compassionate with myself as set my lines and navigate patching up cracks in the foundation. Feeling grateful today, I was a brush away from falling all the way back down the hill.

Leaving shortly to do an ice plunge challenge here today with a buddy and reset the nervous system

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

131 Days Free of PMO.

Feeling empty, brain fog, unmotivated and fatigue although I slept a more than adequate amount of hours. This is the next part of my challenge, I'm trying to remind myself that this is just a temporary feeling and there will be better days.

I'm going to be taking a deload week from the gym and I'm going to do my own type of "dopamine detox" challenge. Work days, I will not spend any time watching TV. On my weekends it will be limited to 1 hour the first day and 30 mins the second.

One day I will be free of this feeling for good, the limitations will no longer plague me...I look forward to that day. I rest for the day.

Keep training!

 

day 5 done perfectly
day 6 loading....

@Redemptionisrequired remember bro that nofap benefits don't come from nofap they come from YOU, if something makes you feel bad/good it's YOU, proud/ashamed it's YOU, So you gotta sit with YOU and kick his ass. You're bigger than this saiyan.

@kingdawoo you're doing great!

 

Day 0. I relapsed.

 

Last Saturday I almost relapsed. I was on a great streak (33 days). Now I feel fine but I need to be more cautious.

I almost relapsed after I smoked weed with friends, I do this once a month. My willpower was completely depleted when I arrived at home.

This can be avoided in the future if I just quit smoking weed with friends.

Even though it is too much fun hanging out with my friends and smoking weed: life is short and I need to take care of myself so I can reach my goals.

So from now on: no more weed.


Rank up! #Oozaru

 

day 6 done
day 7 loading...

no notes except 1 week on it's waaaay

 

Day 46

 

Day one.. newbie to this site, but 15+ years of addiction and trying to break it. This time feels different. I want that mastered ultra instinct. I want to experience sex with my partner that isn’t numbed by porn. I want to to stop objectifying woman in my mind. I want to be happy and free. I will be happy and free!

 

Yes brother!

 

(悟) Low-Class Warrior ▬Training in the ► SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE◄
“Freedom begins with self-discipline.”


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Did it again this morning

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I'm sorry guys I failed... it's not the end but another start

Day 0

 

day 4 of path to oozaru, its going okay so far and although ive had some urges in terms of feeling like streaking after falling in (always happens) ive fought them off and i am now certain i can get to and past the level ive previously been at. What it takes to maintain it after that point is some strategy i will have to learn and try to think of in the mean time. It gets really hard for me after a couple of weeks I eventually fall into a frame of mind where it feels like i have failed way before i even do, i need to find out how to break out of this bubble. (also, forgot to post past 2 days, will check in on the daily now on the path to oozaru).

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

132 Days Free of PMO.

Better day overall, later check in as I had a few things to do in the morning. Busy day but I am feeling better. I'm going to start experimenting with cold exposure and see how that affects me.

Keep training!

@Person_Need_To_Change Thank you brother, it was just withdrawals. I wasn't tempted to PMO or anything like that, it was just an unpleasant feeling. As for you, rise again Saiyan. You can and will conquer this.

@Yambo Congrats on the rank up and welcome back!

@Kingfisher This is over due but congrats on ascending again brother!

@hewm and @kingdawoo Rise again brothers, you've both proven that you can go the distance. Just rekindle and assess your lapse.

@Runsurfpsych and @Dakeuen Welcome!

 

Day 10

27 Days without porn

I have been very busy trying to organize my life. I was about to relapse sometimes, and for now, my will power and tricks to avoid being in the position of relapse have saved me. But I need to check-in every day to keep track.

Stay Strong!!!