Im lost

You can get with it here brah. Get a counter, commit to a goal of staying Fap/PMO free for a set number of days (like a week) and your head will start to get better. I promise. I also promise that if you give me 2 weeks of NoFap or PMO, you'll get a real girl in your life. Legit ? Or quit ?

Stay spartan.

 

Firstly your not alone on this. I had a similar problem watching Gay porn as my tastes seemed to "escalate".
The only way to compare this is a drug user going from lets say cocaine to heroin in search of a new fix. Don't be so hard on yourself i would imagine there are thousands in the same position.

I'm just over 20 days on the NoFap diet and things are looking up. It's hard though and will require will power. Take a breath and hit the delete button on your porn collection, i was the very same spending hours looking for that girl also and i promise you once you get on this programme you wont look back. You will feel great so pump up the motivation and get going.

 

Delete your collection and just start. It is an addiction. No matter how much I indulged it was never enough. The only way out was to quit altogether. It is tough at first but the desires diminish after a short time and now I have no desire to look at porn and you won't either if you are strong and patient.

 

I am new here but am finding being on this forum helps. I work from home on a private computer and rather than downloading porn through the day I am on the forum occasionally reading and responding to posts. I used to buy DVDs,a lot of them, become disgusted with myself, throw the DVDs away, and then go right back out and buy the exact same porn, adding new ones along the way. I did it over and over again. Same with the Net. Download, trash, download, trash; all the while racking up data costs through my Internet provider. And I'm poor, often choosing porn over food and gas. One instant of porn, for me, will renew that vicious cycle I was in, like one puff of a cigarette when trying to quit. This forum could be a life-saver. It's at least different from what I was doing yesterday.

 

ko is right.

 

google "your brain on porn" as well. It's helpful to know the potential damage of a porn addiction. Fight hard, man.

 

Try this...

Step 1. Go into the folder that you have these files saved in.

Step 2. Hold down Ctrl key and tap the A key, then release all keys.

Step 3. Hold down the Shift key and place your finger on the delete key (dont press it yet)...close your eyes and truly Imagine a stronger better more masculine version of yourself, feel it as if it was here and now...then mash the delete key.

Press Y for lifelong confirmation.

Start Nofap...just start, set a short term goal, 9 days, get out of the house each of these days, read the research and witness all the things that this issue has caused in your life. Don't expect perfection, expect temptation, everytime a relapse happens, review why and eliminate the trigger.

Rinse, repeat.

Nofap will change your life, only if your life is worth it to you. But it will be hard work.

P.S. Cold Showers help!!!

 

Well done, baduser. I've done the same before. Be it magazines under the bed or files on hard drive, it's got to go. Porn messes you up, no doubt. That you sought out gay porn and cried afterward, shows how it warps your tastes in search of more of a fix. There's a great line about that on the ybop site..it went something like, "Your tastes could get so warped, in the end you may only be able to get off by seeing a fat black man humping a three legged dog."
Anyway, wish you the best on your nofap journey.

 

Yes, porn addiction is progressive. From soft to hard and so forth and it's so terrible.

 

Dude! That's amazing! Personal records are the easily the coolest thing since sliced bread! But this next time you can beat it. Human beings are phenomenal creatures of adaptability and change. Just take this process seriously and you can't go astray! We're here for ya.

P.S. Please excuse the excessive exclamation marks, I just want to be encouraging

 

YourBrainOnPorn is excellent. You are addicted to the dopamine release. It's as addictive as cocaine and heroine. I know exactly what that feeling is. It's a double edged sword. That feeling sucks but feels good at the same time.

Know, accept, embrace the suck, I say. Know it's going to be hard. Accept the withdraw, pain, irritation, flatline, struggle and everything else you feel is normal. Embrace these as growing pains. This is all normal. KNOW YOUR ENEMY!!!!!!!! This is how the military works. They don't fight blindly. Recon the addiction. It helps. I promise.

Good luck.

WRA

 

Hi Baduser, WRA is right, you need to study your problem. It helps. Watch this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c_RIm9ZMN1I

It takes years to get here, but you can be free in months. Still, it will probably take a couple of months.

 

I don't think anyone here or with a porn addiction has ever not watched something they later felt ashamed of. I think with your gay porn habit, when you are an addict, you get bored of one type of porn, your brain gets used to it, and so you need to look for other ways to stimulate it. I a convinced you can rewire your brain. However, you have to start now. You have to delete your collection. It is holding you back, taking up time, ruining your life and causing you to watch material you are uncomfortable with. I am not judging anyone, but if I was watching gay porn, that would be a warning sign to me personally (same as if my gay friends were watching straight porn lol). Get rid of your collection and start one day at a time. If you manage one day without downloading or viewing porn, which will probably be extremely difficult, then it is a good start. Then do two days. Then three. Then a week... and so on.

 

Well done on 7 days!

I only made it to 10 last time, am having regular sex and hardly ever watch porn these days - I can go months without porn, and I only made 10 days last time, making your 7 days an incredible achievement. No way could I have lasted 7 days when I was addicted to porn. I counted my PMO in hours back then. If I went 8 hours without PMOing that was a big thing lol

When I relapsed I PMO'd 6 times in succession. I think it is natural. Like the drug addict, smoker or alcoholic, when they relapse, then binge hard. So just pick yourself up and keep going. Go for ten days this time. It gets easier. I am at 10 days again today, heading towards eleven and it was easier this time than last. You read more, understand the nature of your problem and implement others' advice and strategies.