Are you ready to die alone?

I am ready to die alone and now i have my caring family , my siblings and my friends but i know that one time will come when i will loose everyone and break me apart but iam ready for it , yessss i am ready !

 

I'm ready for the inevitable

 

Hell yes, i think about switzerland where they allow Euthanasia. other parts of europe too. i hope it'll be easier to get access to it when i'm 80, or unable to function on my own.

i don't want to rely on anyone when/if i lose my mind or my capacity to walk or wipe my own backside.

My perfect death would of course be from when im sleeping. If not, i'd like to take a week just to indulge in drugs (marijuana and lsd, which i always wanted to try) and after that, press a button.

 

I'm not sure I'm ready to die, but I definitely want to be alone when I do and have a fear that someone (hospice staff or otherwise) might feel obligated to be with me. The thought is terrible.

 

It's easier to die or die alone if you can manage your emotions. As porn addicts, we keep running from emotions. They are like a spring, and we push on it, and it builds energy. Then one day when we try to get clean, we release the spring, and what it contains flings out in all directions.

So being clean from dopamine is how we manage emotions. Dying is not a thing that requires this big massive fear and pain. Dying is part of the way God set up for man.

This is why we deal with life and emotions in a clear state. Clear from dopamine. In that way, the fear gets weaker and weaker. Life problems are minimized. We live now and experience it, rather than project into the future, and suffer unnecessarily.

In using dopamine, the addict, like me, gets a temporary payoff of pleasure by suppressing emotions and denying reality. In denying reality, the fear, pain, suffering and worst-case scenarios of the future build because there is not a rational state to analyze it.

And in times when I've been at a "near-zero" dopamine level, this fear is also nearly zero too. Fear is when you see a shadow and assume that it is Jack the Ripper. There is a chance that the shadow is Jack, but it could also be a million other people, objects or figment of the imagination, a trick of the light. Until you peer around the corner and look at the shadow's origin, you don't know what it is. You have to see clearly to look at it. You cannot do that and use the dopamine beer goggles at the same time.

And so we die. What was so great about life? We had a lot of maintenance just to live, like using the bathroom, 3 meals, sleeping, and more. Working and bills. Family and friend demands. There is hardly a fun hour left in a day. Only to repeat this slavery, which none of us choose in the first place.

Also, in getting right with God, I don't have this fear. Jesus said, "For God so loved the world that He gave his only Son, that who would believe in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life."

The Christian doesn't "die" per se. Not like everybody else, in a bout of decay and darkness. It is a change into the eternal, not a death. Faith is how many people cope with that fear, but in coping, they find that the essence of faith itself grows even bigger than the initial thing.

 

Dying is easy. I just want to live without porn. That's why we're here, isn't it?

 

Just make it through today without pmo. When you wake up tomorrow, make that decision again. A prayer never hurts...

 

I'm on Day 17 actually. There isn't too much difference, for now. I'm waiting for the Day 100.

 

Day 17 is pretty awesome! But we tread as if it's a minefield, keeping our eye on the very next step, the day, the hour, the moment.

No, I wasn't trying to imply that you didn't have any time or didn't know. I say the same thing to everybody.

Just trying to encourage!

 

It's so kind of you. Thanks

 

One womb, one tomb.

 

I'm guilty of doomerism. Maybe it's a substitute addiction. Pessimism porn.

 

Probably. We all feel that. I don't worry about my feelings/thoughts anymore, I just do what I have to do. It works for me, I'm not so enthusiastic for this life but at least I can live without anxiety.

 

Of course you'll die alone with that additude. You're creating your own self-fulfilling prophecy here guys.

 

I hate following doomerism and the black-pill because I know those ideas are bullshit and poison for your mental health, but on some days I can't help but think that it is true.

 

It doesn't have to be this way.

It's harder today than how it was a few generations earlier, when you had arranged marriages, people know each other and paired up their sons and daughters between different families. You had a community that pushed you to get married and prepared you (male or female) to fulfill the role of being a husband or a wife. This way, one of the most basic needs us human beings have, to have an intimate relationship with the opposite sex was fulfilled.

Today, we have to work harder. Because that community that I was talking about has turned weak and frail, it wasn't nourished by past generations so it turned this way. We are therefore more alone. The only dignified way forward is for us men to work hard to build ourselves up, and turn competent without the support that has been lost. It's hard, but it has to be done. If we give up and resort to porn and other forms of escapism, we will only push forward the pain, and it will keep accumulating as time goes by. If we fall, no one will miss us, except maybe our closest family.

For the 3 women that visit this site
It's vital that you stay chaste and demand a commitment from a good, competent man, and accept the role of being a woman. Have I lost you already? If not, good, keep reading! If you can't stand the idea of being submissive to a competent man, while having no problems being submissive to an employer, then with high probability your final partner in life will be a cat . Don't listen to the wolves that tell you to "explore your sexuality" or "open up", you will just get used up until you're thrown aside in your 30ies. Don't listen to the feminists, body count matters, and this is not due to some "social construct". You think a 30-something year old "battle-hardened" feminist who's jealous because she has wasted her youth, while you have yours, cares about you? She "followed her heart", one carrot at a time, and now she has lost the most valuable thing she's ever had and it's never coming back. You are a reminder of that!

If you want children, make sure they have a good, strong and competent father. The more partners you've had, the less likelihood they'll have a father at all in the home to support them, and support you.