Struggling tonight with fantasy

It's been a few days maybe since I've posted to this forum.

I'm still free of P and M. I can't tell if I'm precisely experiencing O sometimes, but it seems like I get feelings resembling that without quite getting there?

When I'm exhausted/on the verge of sleep, my mind still seems to habitually go to fantasies. I no longer seem to need to avoid lying down in order to avoid M. And that's new. But I'm not temptation free, and I haven't found reliable ways to redirect my mind. And maybe worse, I'm not always keen to redirect it. I think some addict thinking may be creeping in as I allow these fantasies to run their course sometimes.

Tonight, I notice those fantasies wanting to creep in, and that sexual feelings are quite high. I notice surges of this in the last few days -- And I wonder if it's common for sexual feelings to peak at different times during reboot?

Anyway -- I'm here. And it's not easy tonight. Not sure what I need to do next to get/stay on track. I think first is doing what I'm doing right now, posting about this. Next is committing again to no M tonight.

And then......Hmm. I notice I'm feeling exhausted, which is a real trigger for me. Might be good for me to find a way to do nice things for myself that will help ease the feelings of exhaustion/help me get into a restful sleepy space. Next, I'll try a hot shower.

And then, I think I'll check in here and maybe do a bit more journaling on my reboot journal. Or get started on an exercise from the nofap academy. I've been neglecting those the last few days. Huh -- I think I was getting a bit complacent. I'm paying attention again!