[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Pmod to porn last night. First time viewing porn for about 6 weeks. As soon as I was done I felt the shame that I hadnt felt in a while. I still feel alot of shame overall for how badly ive screwed up my life via addiction. I surrendered the alcohol and drugs many years ago but then for about a year and a half ago i picked up marijuana again and started on a big downhill run, i gambled away every cent i had and put myself in debt. I would " sooth" myself with pmo and chat sites and overeating. Anything to not feel. If i want a good life i have to surrender all of it to the care and guidance if the Higher Power. Ince an addict always an addict. I let my guard down. I need to just let it go and restart. Thanks for all the support

 

Totally agree. Good post

 

14/90

 

Finally reached day 90. It's been a long journey and thanks for all your support. In these 90 days I've faced erections, anger issues, emptiness, depression, sadness, loneliness, overthinking but I've also started to enjoy little things became more confident and not so shy anymore. Started to focus on my career. Once again, thank you very much for all your support your likes and replies really meant a lot to me. This is not the end and I will continue nofap and try to be constantly active in this site.

 

Not always, but until you accept it as the truth about yourself and believe in it and in all that follows out of it.

 

Well done brother ! Even such a short time freed from pmo and directed well, fetched such good results for you! Hope you got encouraged to test it to the limit..if there is any!

 

Can't pass this challange. It should be my first priority why I don't act that way?

 

Because you still clinging to the old you, as do I and everyone who finds completion of the change an elusive thing. Because we are stuck between wanting to become free,pure, healthy, etc, and releasing our old ways, old talks old ways to get pleasure from life experience. We can't serve two masters and we hesitate in choosing and being loyal and true to the choice. Our priorities come from who we really are not from what we think our priorities should be.

 

15/90

 

Day 5

 

Day 11

 

36

 

Day 8

 

Day 9 feeling good

 

Had a good day 25 : ) Resolved myself to complete my workout even though I was tired and didn't feel like it.

 

Day 26!

 

Day 20!!

 

day seven. Still very nervous throughout the day

 

Thanks for the kind words brother.

 

Last night, day 14, was tough but i resisted. I was ok during the day but libido was strong at bed time.