The Lord of the Rings Challenge

40 days – In the bridge of Khazad Dûm a strong battle is fought against PMO.

We have to watch our feelings and make sure we think the right things here. Because porn makes us feel like a winner, temporarly. Then as you said after a relapse we feel like a failure. And then the need for success can drive us to another round of PMO.
But it can also lead to a long streak, of course.

 

Day 45!

 

Day 75

 

Day 277
@theonlyway Never give up brother. Keep playing the game

 

7 days
Low urges yesterday and worked out.
Today I stayed at home, working in some job stuffs, hoping to do exercise after and then I hope to hang out.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 0!

 

Day 17.

Slept in my brother's place, so didn't write here.

There were times, when after coming home from somewhere I would soon turn on pornographies. Now it's different - I abstain. Sometimes I don't even want to pmo anymore.

Spoiler: Journey stuff

Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 17.
No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.).
Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day. 10 done.

 

Day 0

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

10 Day Free of PMO

Stressful but productive day, I have to detach myself from certain things that I cannot fix. I try to fix many things at work, those of which are out of my control.

Stay Strong!

10 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area.

@PeaceOnEarth108 @Baki Hanma Thank you brothers!

@theonlyway Rise again brother, remember attacking yourself while you are down will serve no purpose. It's a hate/shame/pity rinse repeat cycle that addiction thrives on.

@e r i k _ s a t i e Welcome back brother!

 

Day 1

@Redemptionisrequired
Yes, addiction definetly thrives that way. By attacking ourselves we are cultivating the very emotions that we use pmo to cope with.

But of course, we have to learn to deal with those emotions in other ways. So it is not about running away from them, but learning that they arent bad because they no longer control our actions.

Thank you for the words, and the reflections which you set in motion.

 

5 days - With rain and fog you enter the old village of Bree.

 

41 days
Feeling good. I feel my sexuality slowly restoring. Not only because of this streak but because of all the years of trying.

 

Day 46!

 

Day 18.

Got up on time. Went for a walk. It's this snowing and raining, and windy... But somehow it's not annoying. I feel ok. I slept ok. I was tempted before the sleep quite strongly, but navigated through. Wanted to write more now, but what's the point. We all know what's what. Let's just keep going.

Spoiler: Journey stuff

Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 18.
No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.).
Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day. 10 done.

 

Day 278

 

Checking in for day 11

 

8 days
Low urges yesterday, was a funny weekend.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower.
Keep strong my brothers

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

11 Day Free of PMO

Poor sleep, stressed due to a few out of my control situations. Temptation is around, temptation to avoid and run. Thankfully the source of that stress is now done with. I am hopeful that sleep will be better tonight.

Stay Strong!

 

Found out an ex that I always thought I'd get back with, now has a family of her own, this hit me deeper than it should have. Flirting in work & with friend's wives was getting too much, got really lonely, was sending out strong attraction vibes to any and all women, dreams at night of just being close to someone but they happen to be married women, so decided to break the spell and go to an E, had to look up a site to do this which I guess is technically erotica, so resetting my counter. Still staying off P though and will continue to count this, but no longer as a wizard. This lapse is not going to stop the development and growth from the past 3 months, no PM (100days) continues!

 

Day 30

I apologise for missing the last few check-ins; life has been very busy, urges have been prolific, but I’ve made it so far. I’m experiencing an odd balance between urges and moments of grace - when things seem to be at their lowest I am saved, either by a distraction or a change in mood. Either way, I’m grateful to God for carrying me this far; I don’t expect the next few days will be any different, but I hope to make this streak my last.