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I'm doing good. I'm focused on reducing on my sleep, I want to sleep 4-6 hours a day, and impoving the quality of it. I think it's working pretty well.

 

After 2 days of nofap, due to some frustration, I fapped today. During the 2 days, I have not watched anything pornographic. Resetting counter back to zero.

 

Day 6

 

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I'm doing well. Now I'm using a black mask and blackout curtains to sleep better and it's working pretty well. I'm reading Friends, Lovers and he Big Terrible Thing. It's an autobiography and it's quite inspirational, it talks a lot about addiction and that's great for my mindset.

 

I got this from a book I read:

Final Instructions If you follow these instructions, you cannot fail:

Make a solemn vow that you’ll never, ever, go online to visit pornographic content again and stick to it. Remind yourself: There’s absolutely nothing to give up. You will be better off away from porn. There is no rational reason to even watch porn. And there’s no genuine pleasure or crutch in porn either. It’s just an illusion, a false belief. A lot like banging your head against a wall in order to feel the relief when you stop. Porn creates the void. There is nothing special about you. Like countless others, you too can quit. There is nothing so tragic in your life that you cannot quit this.

Don’t try not to think about porn, or worry when you’re thinking about it constantly. Whenever you do think about it, just tell yourself “wow! I’m so glad that is behind me! I’m happy and free from that poison!” You don’t need to block these. That’s using the willpower method. Instead, affirm the true belief in face of these images. Practice meditation to realize these images have no power to control you.

Do not use any form of distractions (cold showers, exercise, etc) or substitutes (softcore images, provocative social media images, TV shows, etc). Be mindful of the power of media and social situations at first. Do not give yourself a reward for quitting. Within a few days or weeks, you might (or might not) have a ‘moment of insight’. Don’t be hung up waiting for ‘moment of insight’ to come. Just get on with your life, enjoying the highs and coping with the lows. You’ll find in no time at all the moment will arrive. For some it is a big moment, for some it is barely noticeable. In either case, the moment of insight tells them that “Yes, it really all was just a lie. I did not need porn after all.”

Go to quitporneasily.com to download the 1 page cheat sheet as a reminder of these lessons. You will also get a 5 day email course that will serve as reinforcement about these ideas. More false beliefs will be uncovered.

You will find subtle things keeping you trapped. Be honest and look at them and deal with them. Journal about them, talk to a friend about them, or reach out to me so I can coach you through it. Don’t wait until you’ve uncovered all of them. Quit now.

Continuously remind yourself to counter the lifetime of false beliefs that: ◦ Porn doesn’t fill the void in my life, it creates it. ◦ I am free! Free! Free! ◦ It feels so good to let the poison out of my system! Without contemplation of these ideas, this will not work. A lifetime of false programming requires some thinking on your part so that it can be reversed!

 

Good words, thanks!

I relapsed 4 days ago. Its an illusion, like banging my head against a wall so i can feel the relief after like you just said.

 

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Yesterday the withdrawal symptoms kicked in really hard. I was angry as hell, overthinking a lot, almost crying because of anxiety, it was hard as fuck. But I didn't give in to PMO, fuck no, I kept my shit together.

 

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Day 7 - I'm doing good, it's been months since I achieved a 7 days streake. For me that's crazy, because it's only a week, that wasn't supposed to be so difficult.

Basically, I'm really taking care of myself, I have a strong block system, and I'm commited to my Reboot. NO FUCKING EXCUSES!

 

Today I have relapsed. Resetting my counter back to zero.

 

Day 8 - I just had a 30 minutes workout that made me sweat like crazy. I'm fucking loving this whole thing about being fitness, I have more energy, I'm more productive, it's awesome. Anyways, yesterday I improved my block system because you know, this addiction does not take breaks, neither should I.

 

After 1 day of struggling, I am not able to control my urges and masturbated very badly this morning. Fortunately, I ate less junk food then before during this time.

 

Relapsed.

I'm going to improve a few things so that I don't relapse because of the same reason again. STAY HARD!

 

Checkin' Relapsed in between but i have started once again. I don't post around here regularly bc it i have a accountbility server from discord but it helps me stay on the line post even if irregularly.

 

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